Me and my thoughts

2009-03-24T03:02:00.000+08:00

I felt i needed God.. so i went to worship and read the Bible...

Wrestling with God

22 And he arose that night and took his two wives, his two female servants, and his eleven sons, and crossed over the ford of Jabbok. 23 He took them, sent them over the brook, and sent over what he had. 24 Then Jacob was left alone; and a Man wrestled with him until the breaking of day. 25 Now when He saw that He did not prevail against him, He touched the socket of his hip; and the socket of Jacob’s hip was out of joint as He wrestled with him. 26 And He said, “Let Me go, for the day breaks.”
But he said, “I will not let You go unless You bless me!”
27 So He said to him, “What is your name?”
He said, “Jacob.”
28 And He said, “Your name shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel;[b] for you have struggled with God and with men, and have prevailed.”
29 Then Jacob asked, saying, “Tell me Your name, I pray.”
And He said, “Why is it that you ask about My name?” And He blessed him there.
30 So Jacob called the name of the place Peniel:[c] “For I have seen God face to face, and my life is preserved.” 31 Just as he crossed over Penuel[d] the sun rose on him, and he limped on his hip. 32 Therefore to this day the children of Israel do not eat the muscle that shrank, which is on the hip socket, because He touched the socket of Jacob’s hip in the muscle that shrank.

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I respect Jacob man ! He's the man !!! What happen was , his brother Esau was coming after him with 400 men .. It's expected of Esau to be angry with him because of some stuff that happen at home and Jacob got blessed by Isaac instead of Esau when Esau was meant to be the one be blessed..

Actually thinking about it , after Jacob is blessed , he wasn't really blessed cause he got cheated by his father in law to work for 14 years if i'm not wrong , cause the father in law gave him the wrong wife.. but he got to make love with with 3 ppl if i'm not wrong .. 2 wives and 1 servant... and he had alot alot and alot of children... literally you can form a soccer team out of it...

So yap , he was amazing cause , he was told that he will be blessed , but it dont seems like he was.. he got cheated by some father in law that refuse to let him off ... and chased after him to the mountain when Jacob tried to escape when the Lord asked Jacob to.. Finally he could chase off the old folk , then Esau was on his way to find Jacob with 400 men... can you believe it ???

So of couse Jacob was sad, he saw angles at this place and he called it " God's camp" ... powerful huh ! God's camp .. then.. he sent all his wives away and children also , and stayed there alone...

God came , and dislocated the joint at his hip ! Can you believe it .. Then God spoke" let Me go , for the day breaks " Then Jacob replied " i will not let you go unless you bless me" He was this determine !!! I will not let You go...

It's powerful man, God just dislocated his hip joint. He wrestled with God.. Picture with me , Jacob grab onto God's hands and say i wil not let You go... never will I !!! i will not !!!. It's like , I will not let you leave me , i will follow after you ! unless you bless me...

It's not until ! it's unless.. i guess it's quite clear... until is that he only wants God's blessing.. Unless is God will have Jacob sticking to Him unless He bless Jacob , if God really really wanna abandon Jacob then it's after God bless Him.. But i believe Jacob will still cling onto God after He bless Him...

Look at God's reply

"Your name shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel;[b] for you have struggled with God and with men, and have prevailed"

For you have struggled with God and and with men and you have prevailed..

Struggled with God

It's like Jacob had go through trails with God that God purposely make it hard for Jacob to believe Him.
He was suppose to be blessed by Isaac and get a good wive from Laban.. But Laban cheated him and gave him another wive ( hahaha can you believe it ) then , he worked and worked for the wive he love .. then the wive he really love was barren.. then he got chase after by Laban accusing him of stealign everything and especially his idols.. when it's the wive he love the most ( rachael ) who brought it along without saying.... finally he settled the matter with Laban then Esau came , more likely to kill him and hsi family then to bless them... he had so many ppl wiht them , all young kids , servant , children, sheeps.... yea.. and couldn't go much..

and yet , God said " and have prevailed "
He believed... despite all these he believed...

Struggle with men..

Jacob was a great gentlemen , look at the way he speaks in the bible.. i was amaze.. I would have burnt Laban's house down for giving me the wrong wive.. and having 2 wives that keep snatching me... and my loved 1 is barren somemore.. i would have killed laban when he came up to the mountain to look for me.. rude and demanding... but look at home Jacob replied.. he was simply amazing.. gentlemen... he was nearly blameless and carried himself this well.. that you just wonder where all the tolerance and wisdom comes from...

Yea... I was so inspired.. Looking at him.. my life aint this deprive...

I told God.. :" i will not let You go unless you bless me " yea..
And He gave me a few number , 32 .. and i went huh ?! ok , so i'm gonna pray again...

He's amazing...

I'm so far from Jacob and i wanna to be like him...

He's jsut amazing...

I smiled and told myself i

2009-03-13T22:56:00.001+08:00

I'm exhausted literally collapsing 2 mins later.. but then i'm loving my life... I feel so fufilled for today , like it ended with a bang in my heart...

I've officially got myself out of the trauma whereby i'm struggling with some thoughts that i cant get myself out of ....

I didnt really totally figure what i was thinking out though , but i think i will just leave it this way ... i'm loving my life now though .. sometimes i just need to know i can be who i wanna be ... what i enjoy to do...

Anyway , it's end of school term and our school has achieved golds for all 3 uniform group.. IIt's the first time NPCC got gold in our school's history, my pricipal was so proud of them cause they made a history for WRS... We're all celebrating , no maybe i should say they .. I guess at least for NPCC it's such an acheivement , it's an example , it's an breakthough to NPCC...cause it's our first... It's so funny , cause if i were to still stay fervently in the NPCC , i would have been with my squat mates celebrating it .. I was from the cadet who rose to sergent for today who got the glory for bringing NPCC to the peak of it ...

Thinking back , i was so fervent , i was so passionate for NPCC and if i were to stick to it , i would have made it .. but at the same time , i look at my own beliefts , and i know i gotta choose when i come to sec 3 .. No one knew about the ultimate reason of quitting it , people thought i was a slacker , and i just let them think whatever they want... I didnt even really talk to Lynette about it , i see there's no need doing it at that point of time to really show everyone who much i lay down for God .. I dont need to show people how much i do . I just need to shift everything away so that nothing pulls me away for the Lover of my life.. It's just this simple . I know it's between me and God ... and only both of us... we just no need to show every one and prove to everyone what we're doing to impress them... And there comes an opportunity where by i can use by low blood pressure to quit it ... So i did it ..

Looking at the achievement i could have got .. I know i could have made it to the chairperson or the vice chair of NPCC easily , since i started off real well , getting involve in so many things and still top my class like nobody business... ( Not anymore though ) It was easy for me at that time .. cause i mugged and threw eunice out of my house when she visited me and disturbed me when i was studying...

I was sitting on quadrangle , looking on my ex-squat mate who's delivering the speech , there's this nudge and tug in my heart.. I smiled to myself and i'm so glad i chose something greater than that .. I've never regretted quitting it even though my cca points suffered badly and people think of me differently after that... To them i'm so hypocrite , or some christian siao .. i stil remember the blue note book that my NCO made me write so that i can look back .. He wants to know us more so he made us write it .. It's like a diary ... we're this close..

So i told him i will not ever quit NPCC in my life cause it's what i've been looking for .. I love the sound of banging together , i love unity , i love bonding...

My love didnt change up till now , but maybe is the way i look for it is much more different i guess.. I dont know what is it to them.. But then to me i'm having the bang together and impacting people in the way that's greater than that , that's what i wanted at least...

I'm so proud that i've made a decision not to choose it though , i was proud of myself when i was sitting on the red concrete in the morning . I looked at myself when i was 14 or maybe 15 ... I made such a radical decision ... I never thought i was good until i ponder over it in class... I guess it's the challenge we face during every phrase of our life .. I guess it's really what we want .

In my life i asked myself several times " I really want that ?" But i asked myself differently when i face different stuff . when i was weary i asked myself do i really want that ? Maybe i dont , maybe i was deluded.. But during this time when i was sober but still troubled and tired , i asked myself again is it what i wanted ? Then i smiled and told God , it is , and i start putting things down for God...

Maybe it's never the question that devil pop into our minds ... But it's the answer we give ... Devil can never take away things from us and lead us astray only if we let him.. he only can sow thoughts , but ultimately it's us who has the last say....

2009-02-24T06:02:00.002+08:00

It's 2 minutes to 6 now and i've finished 4 parts of emath for a topic , and i've attempted all the questions for the revision 7 .. I'm super worry about my results now.. but i know , God will have a way ...

i feel like sleeping now... But i need to do my bio before my chong kills me ...

I wanted to study at the library but mum wants me to help out with her later in the day for my nwe room...

O i was super tired , then i went online and look at pic of sun rise .. i love it... I feel so energised .. Maybe sunrise energise me just like how water energises Dom , and maybe singing for Lynette , and sleeping for JIaxin... Sunrise energise me.. suddenly i feel like going over to some reservoir to watch sunrise.. maybe i'll go over on sat morning.. no no sunday morning.. it seems to be a better idea..

so yap sunday morning .. After that if there's discipleship class , i can go . But if there isn't i can study .. Yea . sunday s a good idea...

I feel like sleeping now!

Sunrise wooo.... Haha... yea , you'll never understand what i mean until you go and experience it yourself..

I've been blogging too often on livejournal .. and after the last post i privated , i feel alot more happier .... i typed this whole chunk of stuff to God... Yea ... haha... i feel the urge to ... ai ya , is ok

Marathon

2009-02-20T17:42:00.001+08:00

I'm at home now , i was suppose to meet up with chelsea..

My sis is blasting Jay Chou's song .. Suddenly i feel so blessed and so loved by my parents for them to give me a room..

It;s literally me designing my own room...And i thank God for gettign a room only when i'm 16 .. I can't imagine designing my own room when i'm like 13 , it will turn out super kiddish and i'll regret.. But i'm 16 .. I guess what i want is kind of fix now...

I'm mulling over what colour i should paint for my wall .. I prefer a darker colour , a dull one .. You know zen.. but i'm afraid my room will look smaller .... And warmer . But i want it to be cozy ...So i'll get a birch or maybe a light orange.. My furniture is all walnut colour .. So ahhh.. haha But i like walnut man...

My parents literally let me do what ever i want with my room.. I get to choose what to do with the room.. My furniture, the colour ..

I guess i;'m getting those black photo frame and hang it on my wall .. So maybe i'll head down to IKEA one of the days next week . I'll be getting a lamp also , i want my room to look sentimental.. The whole commotion of having a room really stimulated me .. I'm kind of excited about it though ...

My sis's room is going through a refurnishing also .. My parents want to get a LCD screen in the living room ..

O gosh it's so cozy .. I'm getting a new mattress too.. Wooo ! I bet i can't sleep on the first night...

I still remember how subhash was over the room when we were in P4 .. She got herself a room , and she painted it green ! A bright green...
I still remember i use to hang out in her room , talking about crushes , reading teenage romance stories , complaining about some teachers , prank calling people ...Life then was so ... easy ... Well , i'm not blaming God about getting myself involve in church , in his word .. I guess it's just a process of growing up...

the reason why we struggle is because we have a choice to choose if we want idealism or we want success , reality .. . Pastors always challenge and encourages us to keep out idealism . But as for the people in the world , most of them aint present with such a choice , they dont knwo about idealism .. They are brought up in a way that idealism is a no-no , is insanity , is weird , unrealistic .. They are brought up in a way whereby choosing idealism over success is a dumb choice .. They feel that it's very dumb to throw money and future and more money and fame and lime light aside just to do what we want , just to impact people .... To them nothing can replace future...

I still remember 2 days ago Mr Roy wanted to crack a prank on Perinder. So he asked the whole class to lie to Perinder that she got 7 out of 18 for a SS test when she got 17/18 (highest in the level ) ... the first thing Felicia said that day ( Felicia is Perinder best friend together with Shabnam ) was Perinder will cry , Perinder just live in a life that failure is a no-no .. She can't take failure .Then Shabnam started explaining to Mr Roy that there was once Perinder was called out to answer a question .. It's trigo and she couldn't answer , then she started to cry cause she couldn't answer .. So Mrs Lim-Yap ( our Amath teacher ) said " You can't swim , i can't swim , we both can't swim " ok it's a little no link , we couldn't get what Mrs Lim-Yap trying to say too.. but it was super hilarious and the whole class bursted out in laughter...More of mockery i guess , mocking Mrs Lim-Yap's english .. But my laughter was genuine alright...

Yea but to perinder , idealism is never on her list of things she needs to consider .. to her future is future ..

yea , so we might envy people in the world who dont struggle what we're struggling , but why can't we just feel privillege over knowing another route , having a choice , in fact , bring brought up with a greater purpose .. I mean it's a good struggle right ? Living a life of truth and not just survival .. I mean idealism is the truth .. It's the right path , we all know that... But it's just a struggle right now.. But i ithink we should just be grateful with the choice places in front of us ..

People in the world arent fortunate , they are deprive , they dont even have a choice ....Agree ?

I love You , oh Lord .. You're so real to me ... What matters isn't what the world wants you to do , what matters is what you want yourself to do , what's most important is that what God wants you to do .

I use to struggling with what my dad wants me to do , but now , i guess i'm getting over it bit by bit .. Not totally , i'm still very uncertain about where will i be , what do i want .. But i'm getting over it , not really day by day , but maybe forenight by forenight ?

Lately , people are struggling , people are falling , but at the same time , people are standing up .. All i wanna say is that we're in this race together . It's like a marathon , you need to pull yourself up yourself but at the same time you need people to cheer you on , people who are running with you.. Unlike worldly marathon , you run alone , it's your marathon .. But it's a spiritual marathon , we run the same path together , all of us need to finish it , MUST finish it .. WE ARE IN IT TOGETHER . we're not spectators , neither are we water stop helper.. We are the same people who are running along side you , we're te same ppl who finish it with you .

I'm loving God more ...

2009-02-18T01:55:00.000+08:00

Actually you can skip all these posts , ahah cause i'm just blabbering my thoughts out and stuff , those lame useless ones ? I've been trying to hit the minimum of a humans' daily quota for speaking through blogging lately... Hasn't been talking much . I dont know why , just dont talk ...

Hahah ! I studied from 8.30pm-9.30pm ? from 10.15pm-12 45 am...1.30-3 in the afternoon... Then after that i finished a topic of homework on probability .. I feel , not really acomplished but i feel very tired ? ahaha yea but i'm contented with my performance in mugging.. quite consistent ..

I'm gonna study after school tmr , after i meet up with charmaine.. Need to settle some stuff... Before i flunk any other topics , o i got back my results .. I got 3rd for SS test , i got 15/18 .. Quite amazing.. I got 2nd or 3rd In Bio test and 3rd in chem test...I'm not very happy cause i dont know if it's consider an easy test or you know i really did well.. cause i'm not only competing wiht my classmates for O levels , i'm competing with the whole nation of 4Express and 5 Normal.. So how can we be contented with just doing well in the class... It's never enough...At least not for me...

O do you know i'm feeling chipper the whole day , cause i'm super happy with my wallpaper on my laptop...
It's a picture of a reservoir... So nice ! It makes my day man .. I just love water with sun rays... You'll never understand it..

Ahh it's 142am now and i need to sleep .. Gosh , i'm not longing forward to tomorrow's arrival , the lessons for the day is a hectic ! They might want to consider to diminish our class commitments and community involvement.. Ah....

Tmr there's chemistry - mrs Whelan will start yaking at me to be meticulous in my work and stuff .. She never stops .. Sometimes a venial mistake i make will just stuck in her mind forever ...OKay but it's kind of my fault here , cause i've never do a wonderful job in her assignments.. Mrs Whelan i'll change alright...

Then there's Amath : Trigonometry will just drain our energy and attention span off for the rest of the day in just 2 lessons of trigo ..

Math : Probability will be so boring that you;ll just doze off ..But the problem is you cant..

Then there's SS : Okay , Mr Roy's voice will wake up up , and his shower of blessing will definately force you to be on the alert mode...Plus his callous words used on us , it never fails to wake Lester up in fury...

Then there's I don't know i can;t recall. I dont bother too i guess...

By the end of the day , during English excel lesson you'll be so drain out and tired that you;ll just feel effete with the whole slow pace , i-love-english speed of teaching...

2009-02-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

Had a run today .. I guess it did go for at least 2.4 km... I was doing my stuff my literature denotations which i always enjoy doing ( seriously ) .. Haha

Yea the run was good ... I just wanna give myself a break to my brain and every other thing and didnt bring my phone along .. just an Mp3 and me and my sports wear... I ran and ran and ran ... It's alot more easier to run with my MP3 on , pondering over my own thoughts... Suddenly the ache and the breathing seems so incouspicous .. I went from Run from some band to some other band , to Iris- Better place , then i can't stand secular songs anymore.. So i switched to my worship playlist ... It's cool la .. I dont know if i did sort my thoughts out ..

But i definately feel better , adrenaline pumping into me... So i just run and run and run , running past the same spot over and over again at 9pm.. Maybe i should do it again tmr .. I love running , you're doing somethin while thinking.. i tend to think more positively when i run ahha.. I tend to calm myself down when i run... yea... I know i dont look like those who run .. but i do run when i am troubled .. haha

Brain is okay lately , still the same , struggling and stuff. But it's better , just dont feel like talking much today actually.. I dont know why , finally i feel normal...

Can't wait for Lynette to come back...

peace , stop thinking .. really

2009-02-09T16:07:00.000+08:00

I'm just back from school ... Listeing to remy zero... I love these songs. Just like south .. I hate metal but i like this kind haha.. Semi metal... Not noisy but you airy ...

Haha...

O i've loving school more and more... Seriously , chem is easier and stuff... Even though most of my study group dont really talk...Haha , but i feel something to study and mug ..

O i feel like going to minds cafe again ! F4 let's go together okay ?

So here i am , blogging , resting... ahah , awhile later i'm going to go jogging... I dont think i'll jog at the park , i wanna run somewhere further.. I think the reason why i hate jogging at the park is because it's just round and round , you dont progress.. But running along the side walk is different , you progress... You see how far you go :) hahha yea...

Kind of waiting for my mp3 to charge now hahah... Yea.... and i'll be running .. I miss running.. Sometimes you just need to dump stuff aside and run .. very far and very far ... overcoming your physical barrier... ahah.. i guess it must be the same spiritually ... look where you wanna go , what you wanna do for God and run .. run far far for God... beyond your physical barrier...

There's always a place to be superficial & a place to be deep

2009-02-08T23:02:00.003+08:00

I shall keep this alive....

everyone is going to LJ , i shall stay loyal to this pathetic blogger....

haha

Yap , so life , is still good i guess.. I'm waiting for charmaine to call in .. I shall go pull myself up and do those hw that i need to hand in tmr...

I WANNA WATCH BENJAMIN BUTTON! Yea.. but life is quite busy to squeeze it in!

O Hey ! HEart Fest is gonna be super fun man !

Subhash if you are looking at this , you're chop for valentine's day .. Since both of us.. haiz... let's not mention about t and h 4 years ago k ? O it's 4 years ago..!

Madness....

What am i gonna do tmr .. I bet i'm gonna camp at some cafe to study since it's monday and since i wanna just spend some stuff doing my own stuff....

the rest of the week will be great.. It wil lbe heart fest , heart fest and more heart fest . Friends , and friends and mroe friends !

F4 is gonna break through despite we're drown by school....

Heart Fest !!!! You gonan eat and eat pizza , hot dogs , all sort of stuff and you get to punch , push , jab , poke your friends down the galdiator machine

O and fooseball , we gonna get a bigger size one ! You're gonna drool ... WE replace the ppl ? in the foose ball table ?? Yea !!!

There's this person that i'm veyr worried for nwo to be honest ...

O and my dad , i pray that i can get his charger back before he sees me tmr ? let my dad just be forgetful for one day-tmr .. that i can get his charger back

2009-02-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

Let's just walk like the blind man ...

Walk with faith ... Walk without sight .. Walk with you heart , walk with God .

the sight is like crap now ... But i need to walk by faith ..

Where is it ! Ah faith ...
Run Run .. No discouragement .. RUN RUN RUN !

For God , for me.. Tmr shall be a no nonsense day . i shall do my stuff and get my faith back up , and settle 101 problems that i've been grumbling 10 mins ago tmr night after 8 pm... Before that , i'll just need some time to get my faith up there.. Ahh

Stand up gabrielle

we started spiritually , let's end it spiritually

2009-02-01T20:30:00.003+08:00

All i can say on how i feel today is just this phrase .. " it's just the first day "

Haha .. ahhhhhhh! .

well , today was real fun hanging out with some of the people from Zone F at minds cafe ... But there's just this one thing that is crop up in my head.. I just felt weird somehow... so paradoxical .. ahah

anyway minds cafe is fun ... Jiaxin " miscarriage " We got to know this new friend call Jordan , 30 years old from minds cafe ...

We changed so many games , from this to that , madness ... It's just madness...

Haha .. it was fun .. Real fun , until all of us got a bit sian ... bored...

Then , all of us got hype up again by this boat game which eventually ended by Cheryl smashing the board itself , cause we decided to end kill all her sailor... haha, so cheryl got so irritated . ahha yea...
It was funny ...

The guys couldn't stand us ... at all! They were praying that we wouldn't get those screaming games to play , but well , girls you see , somethings our brain deserve a break and ahah we got all those lame , reaction game .. Which ended up screaming..

The guys got some strategy game though hahah... so weird

times flies , things change , disappointment come , we pull our self up !

2009-02-01T11:03:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna blog blog blog ...

Haha , before i leave the house for zone outing , and hide somewhere after the outing to mug for test...

It's never too early to study .. HAs been very in track studying ... Squeezing every second out .. I think the busier you get the more you feel how imperative studying is .. and the need to study ...

I have an awful dream last night , a real awful one...

If dreams are there because you think at night , then i shall say , my thoughts are everywhere cause the whole dream is so scary but dont make sense at all !

So service was good ... I finally know what i gotta do .. Convictions ... I dont know what to say , sometime stuff is getting harder and harder to discern at times when you hang out with people and stuff , cause all seems logical... but convictions allows you to discern it ...

Now i know what to do ...

Yesterday was a good day i guess...

I dont know , it's not a perfect day , it's a hectic day and it's the day i made the most mistake, it's the day i need to start doing stuff and settling stuff ... It's a day i need to start being on top of stuff and know what is happening .. it's a day i need to pull myself up for everything i do ... It's the day , i feel alot the most ..

But i learn alot too ... I learnt when Lynette shared abotu some stuff... I learnt when problems are thrown to me and i need to think fast .. I learnt that alot of times small stuff are not unimportant .. In fact it might be the most imperative stuff... Alot of time , people think , only running the event , running this , heading that are big stuff .. Yap , it is ! But doesn't mean , the people who are running with them , who are task to do stuff are not as important ... they need to be there , it's just like a hand , without a finger and without a hand ... it does make a different in a person ...

Well but i guess the impact is different , when the head dont run well , it make alot of impact , when the crew dont run well IT DOES MAKE AN IMPACT AND IT MAYBE SEVERE , just that not as much as the head .. I guess that's why the head is choosen by taking charge , cause they are willin to take up the responsibility...

Yea, I've learn alot yesterday , it's a chaotic day , and i ended up mentally and physically drain , but it'a all worthwhile ...

I'm starting to think of something that i really dont wanna to think about for the lifetime ... But it seems to be becoming abit too obvious .. It use to be oblivious i guess... And i need to face the fact i guess...

Talk to charleston yesterday for awhile yesterday and it's all good...Time pass so fast , the last time i talk to charleston was when i was sec 2 , now i'm sec 4 ...

it's so weird , time passes so fast and i didnt realise it .
things changes so fast too and it brings disappointment

Rise up , Take Charge , Make things happen . DO NOT FEAR!

2009-02-01T02:28:00.002+08:00

I dont know how to describe how i feel now ... 50% of it is more of scared ? Haha Yea , but faith and responsibility will overshadow it very fast ...

Thinking about it , it's not really that a massive big thing to do ... yea... great

So yap , i'm literally exhasted for this week ... But finally i feel my days are spent fruitfully ... But i'm really tired , i collaspe at my leather sofa for awhile , eating ba gua and pineapple tarts ( 3 piece only ) and just stare into the space for awhile ... Wow... The day is such a hectic , but i'm amaze by how i work.. Nothing to brag , i'm just trying to lift myself up alittle bit , reward myself alittle bit for my hardwork of the day .. haha ... Gabrielle , i'm proud of you ...
So i gathered all my cells for a meeting in my brain together the rest of the remaining willpower just to pull myself up so that i'll bath , and then send YA and stuff... Yea.. I'm proud of myself , 8am to 2pm none stop man ! hahaha Ok...

that's the end...

God dependency ! That's the thing.. Our thoughts , i think it's so true , we need to relay on God's strength to settle all the commotion up in our brain.. those war against thoughts , sometimes it's so hard to discern between good and evil in our thoughts cause everything seems reasonable and convincing... That's when God is God and we're not ..Come on , you know you're not God , so stop acting as if you are...

Yea.... My mum is chasing me to bed cause i told her i'll be going to the air port... YEa...

Missing the scenery... Missing myself ...

2009-01-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

" Forget about it , and pull yourself up " I've been telling myself this for the day ...

I'm missing seletar reservoir a little too much ...

Fifth Aunt ... Unlike any other

2009-01-29T00:37:00.003+08:00

I've been in love with the song iris ... It's quite of cool , as in the lyrics....

" and i dont want the world to see me , cause i dont think that they understand , when everythign is meant to be broken , i just want you to know who i am " it's kind of emo i know haha .. As in the chorus flows well with the words , i listened to the live version is not that nice , cause it dont really flow.. yea... So dont worry , not emoing here..But the lyrics are quite meaningful...

Just sent my report , i've been reading . Lit is officially my fav sub . Even though the agony of writing long long essays is essential in this sub does make this sub less appealing , it's really meaningful .. Muzarkiar ( is it how it's spelled ? haha sorry ! ) ahah teared because of the book ...

" "oh it's you ." Or, "You've come." Something like that. And immediately my aunt became daughter again.Became Fifth Sister again . With little ceremony . As if she'd always been there.

this i remember most clearly- her hands that first day she was there in her mother's kitchen . She turned around , smiling vaguely"

"Smiled and smiled " " My Aunt smiled and rubbed her hands , rubbing her life , the life layered under the huge redness of her hands "

Excerpt from Island Voices - An obituary For Fifth Aunt Come Late by Patricia Wong

It's so deprive you see ," immediately my aunt become a daugther " Aunt was sort of abandoned by her family . Another family sort of took care of her and adopted her , cured her of her illness. the author only knows fifth aunt as this auntie in the kitchen , not educated , nothign ...Being very guillible , very innocent , work and work and work for the adopted family ..

Actually deep inside of her she's longing for a place she belong , she never felt the adopted family as a place she belong... She just feel like a guest there...

Such a character who's so easily contented for a place that she can call where she belong - kitchen .. A love for her family that overshadow all the hatred ..

People call her naive, people thinks she's guillible , but i think she's unique .. I think she does feel the hurt and the despair , but unlike any other , she chose to deal with it another way .. Who on earth is immune to such hurt , loneliness , who on earth dont want a friend , dont want a husband right ? ahah Fifth aunt is a human too ....

That's why i love reading , i guess cause i've made something out of my reading , i can really relate to stuff , really think in another way , feel in another way .. ahah

Kind of cool...

Is it too much of an info ?

Starbucks , cozy brown couch , a thick fantastic book... There you go...

2009-01-28T20:42:00.003+08:00

no one's so interested in you to want to find out every single detail about your life, what you did for the whole day today, etc

It's kind of true thinking of it . Haha...Yea...yea...ya.... Hmm train of thoughts.

Today was good went out with Charmaine , helene , huixin ... Wei Ling felt tired and decided not to join us ...

i'm kind of use to the whole slowness now ... Hanging out at the starbucks are eluding lately... haha if i can dig out the time , hanging out at starbucks for just 2 hours is abit too short .. I guess it'll be just cool if you can just tug into the cozy sofa and just being absorb into the books .. I love to read lately , i guess it will just drive you crazy for awhile , into your own imagination , having expectations that only your imagination can be meet it . I guess that's why forth dimension is so powerful , because you know what you want best , your thoughts has no boundaries , thats why more than just saying , just praying , forth dimensioning is so powerful...

yea , so starbucks... But it's so hard to dig out the time ... 2 hours is just too short , so unsatisfying , but spending a day there seems to be so wasted ... As if you've wasted the day away just for pleasure and leisure hahah.. Yea...

New Year , Calculator , tortoring temples and delicious vegetarian vegetables ... Zen .. Cloe .. Shi Hui ... Shi Min .. Good chinese New Year

2009-01-27T00:38:00.005+08:00

Haha , i reached home and rushed to the computer firstly is to check out my mail... Then i saw there's 1 and i really thought it's the mail that i long waited for .. But it isn't haha ... Yea... Well ...

Anyway new year wasn't exactly fun . It was quite boring . Went over to Uncle Mike's house to have reunion dinner , turn out that they had it long before and we reached there at 5 .. I wonder is it reunion lunch or dinner .. Well but the food is nice definately , you cannot deny the fact that my auntie is a good cook . Haha so the food is delicious...

Sandy Woo is counting her ang baos now ... Hahaha!

Back to it , so me and my family went over to chinatown for a walk , in the streets , most of the people are foreigners , mostly caucasians and china people...

So yea didnt really add on to the new year atmosphere. It's just diluted , i think the highlight for the whole eve of the new year is the fireworks . Daddy ( god dad which is also Uncle Mike ) stays at people's park and the fireworks set up is just in the carpark of the building . So when they fire the fireworks is just right in front of us . So loud , so nice , so colourful .. HAHA ! Yea ! But it's super loud ! haha !

Shall go bowling on wednesday...It's gonna be fun

So monday was good , the afternoons are boring , i woke up at 9 plus after getting ang baos from Uncle Mike , we went over to Granny's place , then saw Uncle Steven there , with auntie , wen bin and wen ling... Hasn't seen them for years , said hi for a while , hang out for awhile , then we left for Daphne's family ... There is just crowded ... so ____________________________________... But the food there was delicious , i always keep my stomach empty for the food there haha ...

Yap then i went over to another house , it's my auntie's mother's sister;s house .. Is also my dad's marine fish mate haha... But dad changed to the normal kind lately...So it's quite cool there , not long later we left ... Hahah Daddy's Lexus is the best , you'll just sleep inside even it's hot out there . It insulate the whole heat off . the only thing is that he refuse to switch the radio station haha insisting of bringing up the new year's atmosphere . TO be honest everyone knock out so it didnt defeat much purpose . But i manage to convince him in the end ...HAHAHA !

At night we all went over to uncle william's place , my dad's bro .. It's better , his condo is always comfortable .. I guess the fact that he's single , built and old and has a very stable well paid off job , get him such a well installed place ... haha ... He lives alone in the condo , you know he's those excercise freak , regular patroniser for Standard Charter marathon and those overseas hiking thingy and marathon ? Haha , i asked my dad how he ever survive , doesn't he feel lonely ?

My dad say he can never understand cause he never live such lifes

Well , Uncle William once persuaded me to join Standard Chartered Youth marathon , i run 21 km and he runs 42 km .. Haha...

Well back there , i watched Flash Point and half of Rambo .. Rambo is nice , cause it's uncensored ( no R rated scene , just the bloody scene makes you vomit )My dad was very happy over it , but i was covering my face with his cushion .. It's also the best time for Uncle William to bring out his surround set to at on to everything ...

The Auntie played Mahjong except for Auntie Cindy who's busy with all the food .
Shi Hui and Shi Min is funny , i still talk to Shi Min alot , haha her PSLE goal last year is to beat me and she did , ahaha .... What an easy goal right ? haha!

yea , i happen to know Zen and Cloe .. Haha Zen is my newphew or niece .. Okay i'm his AUNTIE ok! .. Hha , eya , he's super cute , we tried to match make him with Cloe , but Cloe is older then him ...

I realise Dad's family is quite well educated , Zen is like 3 ? and he uses Ralph Lauren's socks ... Hahah So you can imagine , and Shi Hui blabbering her babarila's english really cause Uncle William to worry about Zen and Cloe's english standard being pulled down ... haha

Uncle William was trying to correct Shi Hui english ... Shi Hui said , Cou-culator ..

haha and Uncle William teached her to pronouce it as ca-l-culator ...

Ca and not cu ,, and no L i think haha... Then Shi Hui gave up .. She's super funny ...

Auntie Linda is obsess with Little Nonya , she watches like an child , bringing her food to the hall haha..

Dad and uncle steven start talking about taxi's and Christopher Lee and his court stuff...

Shi Hui ran around with Zen and Cloe

Sandy sticked to her twilight , and i manage to convince her to buy new moon , eclipse and Breaking Dawn hahah a

SHi Min manage to tell me her goals for PSLE and what she wants to do in sec school..

Auntie Cindy was praised by her culinary skills

Mum manage to play her fav sport , table swimming - Mahjong hahah !

Dad manage to have a good chat with Uncle steven

Uncle William manage to bring out all his good stuff that he has been enjoying alone and share it with the rest of us ... Nikon Cam , Surrouding Set , Flat HD TV... haha

Auntie Jeanna finally get to play her Mahjong that she has been graving for before all the auntie arrive..

haha , Zen and Cloe have fun running amok at Uncle William house without beign scolded ..

Auntie Linda , hahah have fun ! but missed her fav little nonya .. ahah that she insisted that mediacorp should play on Sunday instead so that people can watch as a family haha . But i guess the money she won from the mahjong game did overshadow her agony for the show haha...

Yea everyone have fun , i have too and i love it :)
and i'm getting old hhahaha... Older and older each year... 16 !

Clear , neat home ... Once a year...Clock ticking slowly...

2009-01-25T12:04:00.003+08:00

Today is quite an cheerful day , i guess is because i woke up at the right side of the bed .

My mum and dad is discussing whether they should topple the Fu or not ... and they realise they shouldn't ...

This morning when i woke up , my sis complained to me that i sleep talk ...

She said , this morning at 6am , i actually took up my phone and talk to chelsea when chelsea didnt call .... " hey chelsea ah ? Uh Huh ..."

I can't really recall this you know , but my sis insisted that there is ... So i guess there is ...

Then i'm sure i'll go ... " Jiaxin , international hugging day "" Jiaxin my new year resolution... "" Jiaxin... woo lala" ( she's gonna go crazy and there's 3 ways i predict she will react when she sees this )

1. She will grin , roll her eye and say " again... "
2.She will not have any expression ... and plot how to run away from me when she sees me in the 3minute interaction

3.She will not have any expression on her face , but still roll her eye to herself and tag on my board or msn me ...

Woolala anyway , CNY i'm nto really excited about it , but the cash makes it tempting... I can't quarell with my sister today , so my mum is trying all ways to stop us rebuking one another..

I thought that the last thing CNY together is that me and chelsea start quarelling with each other when we go for visitation . Or me chasing after jiaxin for hugs and ang baos ... I bet the elderly will use the broom and chase us away ....

Yea , so CNY, it's relaxing ....

Relaxation...Howie Days.. Slow Homework and Long talks

2009-01-24T20:37:00.004+08:00

Haha , it's so weird not going for service ,
suddenly you're just too free. Now i understand how my classmate feel . haha

Well , this week is a hectic week ? but i'm kind of enjoying myself now

I was okay on the 1st few days but i got a little lethargic after the 3rd day . Today was worst , i lost my drive , but i got it back now ..

If i were a boy.... Hahah ! Beyonce . haha

I'm gonna study man ! So many home work so little time . I realise my brain is real slow , as in my fingers cant reeally catch my brain well .. Hahah cause whatever i wanna type it come out wrong or too fast or too slow . Mainly too fast and wrong spelling.

It must be the disease i told Jiaxin .. Must be the diesease aahha...

Maybe is really like what chelsea say , coconut brain ...

Kind of looking forward to new year , it's not really that fun .. I dont know most of my relative . Haha i see them once a year , so it's gonna be a boring thing .

When i was younger , i use to get lock in at my uncle house after all the visitations which ends roughly during the evening .. So i'll be at home , it's so boring ..
But now i'm older , going 16 now , i'm gonna go k box with my sis i guess , or a late night movie , cause we still have tuesday to sleep in .

O WEdnesday is gonna be exciting , me , charmaine, wei ling and helene is gonna worship God together , then we're gonna bowl ! hahahahaha

Take charge ! ahhh ! I feel the adrelina coming in already . Ineed it you know , cause i've let it leak through out the week .. Arghhh ... Hahah i need it , idealism ! Where is it ? It's coming back ! hhaha

lately i realise somestuff about talking ,i love to ask more questions then talking ... haha , i realise i can know alot about someone just by asking some questions haha , it makes the person think also .. It's so amazing ... haha

I realise that i start to hate those yelling and screaming songs by simple plan , busted , Kelly Clarkson . I still like their slow songs , those smooth and peaceful ones but the fast one is real irritating ... ahah ! cause i've enough stuff on my mind for more of their complaining and grumbling songs ... Hahah , i like tyler hilton and howie day lately haha... People change , taste change...

I'm trying to keep my idealism haha , cause i realise is the best thing a person must have as they grow up cause.... yea.... hahaa

2009-01-19T02:53:00.002+08:00

AHH i manage to send YA in ! but i woke up at 2.30 to sent it in . My phone was off everything was sucky ... Luckily my instinct was on when i'm sleeping and can sense something is not right , at 2.15am , and struggled to find my phone which tooks me quite awhile..

So i decided to blog..
I'm still very surprise that Lynette was over the moon over the puzzle haha . I'm so glad that she likes it , the 6 hours are indeed worth it . i seriously dont mind fixing another one which is 1000 pieces for her next birthday if it really lid her up so much . Chelsea should take a look at how happy Lynette is , so that she'll feel her effort really really worth it . We're so tempted to keep the puzzle haha , and took a last shot of picture with the puzzle before leaving ... Haha ! So i let chelsea mull over the puzzle for awhile before she smsed me at 530 to check lynette's reaction and said she miss the puzzle . haha . Yea , i guess the puzzle really stand out to me and chel i guess it's because of the sweat poured out , maybe it's not as nice as it is in other people's eyes . Hhaha , but i really really like it . Waa...

Well , i was worshipping God and God spoke to me in the service , i can hear God more and more ... I know what God wants me to do to His people now . I didnt even realise this about my people and well F4 in general until God told me .

" God dependence army " , true , what if one day i'm no longer there anymore , ( it will never happen ) I still want my people to strive for God , what if one day they goes overseas ? I wont be there .

Wow , this is indeed another Point B as a whole . I'm starting to hear God more lately , i guess cause i start to depend on Him more and more i guess...

Life is never a bed of roses indeed , but with God it's different , physically it's still isn't a bed of roses but inside it is a bed of roses ... What more do you want ? a Genie which pops out of the i dont knwo what to grant you 3 wishes ?

O yea yesterday night on the ride home with chelsea ,we asked each other questions that no one seems to ask . Chelsea asked me questions that i've never thought of before , maybe i do personally but those that i dont share , i dotn really like to share ... It's so open ended yet it's so real , i asked her a few too ... Things aint going so deep before ... I guess those question really define a relationship of 2 person if they care or not .. Yea ... So much to think but so little time ...

I've so much to say , but i shall leave it at some where else ... Lovely finally figured everything out after 1 week

2009-01-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

Lately some stuff happened and it makes me thing of life more . I hate being pensive and contemplative at times sometimes the thoughts are so deluding ... It may seems right but it's all wrong . Yea , my brain is exhausted ... Really ...

i miss church and i'm going back to breathe the fresh air .... Home ....

Life physically has been normal and ordinary ... But ordinary days are the best right ? But it's alittle ordinary to ordinary just because i didnt go to school .. I miss out alot and i really want to get back there ...I yearn to get back there . I yearn to get back to church more ...

I guess the only reason why i'm yearning for having a more hectic life now is to get ride of all the thoughts ...

O today we set a prank on our mom .. It's my mom's birthday and we decided to prank her . I told my mum that i'm going out for a project work and only will be back in 8 plus ... My sister told my mum that she's having cca and only will be back at 6 . By the time my mum will be out , working .. So she's quite disappointed .. So after i left , i met up with my sister and both of us travelled to get some gifts for her ( you wont want to know what it is ) . And then called up our dad . My dad , acting innocent , called my mum and just bring her out for lunch to celebrate because we're such an unfillal daugther( we asked our dad to scold us so that it seems real ) Yea , so in the end , we pop out at the restaurant and gave our mum a surprise !

She's happy and over the moon ..

I guess alot of times we just have to learn to honour our parents even though they are not so tempting to be honoured .. for me taking as honouring my parents is my conviction cause it's God's . We dont have to be mean just because the other party are mean , i like to do things my style my way and this is it . Who cares what the world does . I just want to do things my way , God's way . The way i like it and the way i think it's best . There's no problem to be big hearted and just loving . I just like things to come to and end , agruement , rubbish .. So that i can do bigger stuff ...

I love windy days ...

2009-01-15T13:10:00.002+08:00

Thoughts are flooding in like never before ... Haha , but i manage to drop everything down onto my dairy and just stop thinking about it ...

I'm still quite sick of the mc , it's boring at home . All i did was study , fishing with wii , go out with my parents and study..

Yahoo radio is playing Jason Mraz songs .. I'm Yours . haha I always think that this song makes me feel like i'm in e night safari with elephants and tigers on some muddy walk way... And some african zoo keeper .... haha yea ... Coconuts ? hahah yea ...

I'm loving yahoo radio , i prefer it than my 98.7 radio ... But it dont really play the latest hit , but i customise the songlist , as in they play song according to my perferences so i kind of like it ... Other than the fact that there's commercial every 5 to 10 songs .. which is very irritating . And when they start playing their Yahoo recommended songs , i feel like killing them . It's like the previous song is Jessica Simpson's soothing song , then the next one is some band screaming their lungs out ahhh !i need to stop studying and play the next song . Ahhh ...

It's playing lillix now ! i LOVE IT !

I feel more cheerful today compare to last few days ... I'm loving this ... O gosh ... O do you know now i look at lights it will blur out , you know like when you dream about some fantasy thingy , it will have blury white light to make you know that it's fake ... My vision is something now , i cant really see properly but it;s kind of fun ... Okay it's very fun .. haha , i like it ... haha ! Cute .. Alright i'm crapping ...

I'm glad that i finished all my homework ... ahahhaha ! What a hardworking patient

2009-01-13T22:51:00.002+08:00

Sandy is back from camp . She's sleeping beside me quietly now , with the pimples cream on her nose . Haha , so typical of her .

I'm getting bored with this . My eyes are great , don't worry . Haha , thanks .

It's back to normal now , just that i cant really see that well only . O , after this whole thing one of my eye is DOUBLE EYE LID NOW ! . haha I just realise , yea !

Cool right ,as in usually my double eye lid goes off . But this one didnt , so i presume it's permanent , well i pray that it's permanent , even though it doesn't really make my eye any bigger haha.

I'm still not use to the whole free thing , i'm not use to being sleepy in the afternoon due to the medication but being so awake at night cause you sleep too much . But the medication makes you faulty , your brain just cnat function .

So anyway , AK has been updating me about school everyday . so nice of her .

I finish revising 1 chap of bio today , wrote 1 compo , did checking on dictionary and did 1 exercise on my bio theory workbook . I'm still bored .

There's so many things i want to do , follow up , sumo house , steamboat . So many people on my mind now . 3 quarters of me feels like a handicap but 1 part of me pulls myself to trust God . Bittersweet ....

Maybe i should get a puzzle and start fixing it .

2009-01-12T18:41:00.002+08:00

I dont need people's approval to do things my way . I dont need to prove to anybody anything . It's my life , not theirs ....

Lately , has been receiving calls from eunice , saying 101 bad stuff that's happenign in school ... People are getting meaner and meaner . Saying mean stuff to me , i'm really okay with it , but saying mean stuff to people around me . That i cant stand ...

These are just craps... Wait till i recover .. Shall get these craps out of me .

Lovely , so i;m on mc for 9 more days ... Do you know having this eye thingy is really miserable .

I went over to my family clinic today , without saying much they refered me to a hospital instead . Going to a hospital is really a madness thing ,going to this specific hospital - i really think it's unnecessary . But , well ... I went . On the way there there's alot of thoughts on the place , i wasn't really down but i'm just feeling contemplative ... So yea went to check it up and stuff ...

So for now , i need to wear a sun glass whereever i go , even at home , so that the sun ray wont really affect my eye . the doc digged the pus and blood out of my eye . It's disgusting , it's painful .. Ok i always hate things doing stuff in my eye , let alone digging stuff .

yea , so here it is , 9 days , i cant step out of the house and stuff... It's really boring .. Hhaah . Real boring ... Hahaa

I shall do some mugging this season ...

2009-01-11T12:46:00.003+08:00

I'm really bored to death ...

So i shall blog nonsense .

I really like The Last Song by Hilary Duff , it's very meaningful , somehow i wish it's longer . but sadly it's not .... It always make me chill after long hours of arguement ...

Hilary Duff is cool you know , before she becomes so Hollywood . Her songs are meaningful , her songs are authentic . Haha if i can use it this way ... Okay i'm really bored ....Hilary duff is that cool , it's not about her blonde hair . But it's how real she is man , ok how she use to be ? She's bold , she's straight forward , she dont care how ppl think ... SO cool

Maybe i should really hire an entertainer ..........

2009-01-08T11:36:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

OKay , i'm gonna get my mum and we'll be getting assesment together .. I need assesment books now !

O levels !!!

Okay , i really yearn to go to school now man . O level and i cant afford to lose out . O man ... But my eyes dont seems to get better , it's getting redder and redder , i lost my voice and i had my nose block this morning when i wake up .

How am i gonna go to school ! haha ( but i'm still able to go for outing :P) ahahha

Yea .. Ok i really miss school , why not put it this way. I miss Ak , Eunice , Juan and Yi Tian that's why i miss school ?

AK has been calling me everynight , haha talking crap ! Crappy days ...

OK school ahhh !

I'm listening to The Oc's songs mix ! OC is the best !

Sore eye

2009-01-06T19:16:00.002+08:00

I have sore eye ! Okay i dont know if i should rejoice over it or feel down over this ... I'm ripping my Jesse MCcartney's CD that I've just found on my shelf 2 days ago ..

My usual reaction towards taking 3 days MC straight is that i'll be over the moon about it .But this time round , i'm quite sad as i lost the luxury of enjoying early dismisal in my school ...

My school ends at 1pm from monday to wednesday ... For this week .. Do you know it's totally impossible for our school ... As in it's famous for it's long hours of study ... from 7-4 kind ? But miraculously it ends at 1pm for 3 days ! I wonder what happen ...

yea but i kind of like it , cause i really cant take the medication .. It's will cause you to be drownsy .. Ok super drownsy ... After i had the tablet a hour later i knock out ... O gosh .. Imagine i eat it in school. No point man... Will just sleep through out ..

The funny thing that my eye is super small , it's so small that my mum cant drop the eye drop into my eye ... haha , cause the whole eye sore .. haha it's smaller than my the other eye , so it's very small ... hahaha

2009-01-05T20:45:00.002+08:00

One last post before i start mugging again...

Typed what happen last night at somewhere else ... My eyes are kind of popping out today and i put my specs on so that everything is oblivious haha ... Today is weird ... The tension is weird ... I really wonder why ... But it's God's Will that i happen , i totally trust Him ...Just abit disappointed .. Okay , very ....

It's quite cool , i called up Jiaxin yesterday night , she was about to sleep ... But when i call up she just didn't mention that she's sleeping haha... I think she's the only one aside from Lynette that i think i can call at that hour . If it's a day i can call anyone .. But it's a midnight .. It's just different ...

Haha anyway , school is okay today ... I decided that i should just pray till things happen . I want God to move in a way He never move before ...

I miss juan ... I'm having a sore eye now so , but i really want to go to school tmr ! Cause it ends at 1 , plus my chemistry 10 years series is lost .. I need to get it from Adeline and photocopy before anything happen ... Before my head roll on the floor on wednesday's chemistry class . I never look forward to chemistry class in my life ... Ok , it's not really la , just that i'm always on the filtering mode during chemistry ... Mrs Whelan loves to talk about my hair which got caught by Mrs Kok 1 year ago ... Which is seriously irritating .. Haha , plus Mrs Whelan never fails to embarass me , when ever i didnt do 1 of the question in my homework ... Hahah yea ... Hey but miracle happened last year september .. She praised me because i improved my grade from F9 to B3 in chem ... Haha ... She's shock la haha ...

But she met me up today to talk about my homework , she told me everything that i need to pass up . Cause i'm the " need more reminder " category to her , she decided to call me up personally with Lester and zhi Wei , to REMIND us ! haha

AK and Eunice is funny , we had breakfast together during recess haha . we ate and ate and i just throw my maht worksheets aside and eat . AK talk about her hilarious nightmare , it's suppose to be a nightmare , but it turns out funny ! hahaha... Lunch time , AK and I went to the office to do some administrative stuff and i saw ... XUAN ! Waaa , i went derange the whole week thinking of her , it's so sad that AK can only catch a glimsp of her back view .. She needs to feel the feeling that i always feel when i see Xuan ! haha Well anyway , so after that AK went for a meeting and i went to look for her in the music room after that .. Tamper with the keyboard and went to look for Eunice .. . We list out a whole list of songs and changed it to lesbian songs .. We went mad outside of HOD office .. AK , Eunice and I decided that we should go for lunch . But when we reached , no one feels like eating ,.. So we ordered deserts ahah , Nolly didnt want to eat anything ... AK and Eunice ordered some super disgusting looking tapoles .. I ordered my durian Ice Kachang haha ! They must be irritated with the smell .. haha yea .. so that's about the day .. Went home , and the rest is well pretty .... weird .. ahah but great !

Still loving God :) My eye is really painful , sore eye !

2009-01-05T00:36:00.002+08:00

AHhh ! OK , i'm gonna blog before i mug . i studied for 1 and a half hours already .. Need to study about 2 hours more before i complete my homework . It's like a stack ! it's really a stack ! I dont think that teacher is negotiatable .. Well , luckily i did my bio notes and finished my amath homework before school starts ... haah ! Lucky , or not i'll be drown by stress now ...

I'm loving God . I shall not be affected by stuff ... Maintain it !!!! ahhahah

2009-01-04T22:36:00.001+08:00

I found a very interesting video online !

Music: Louis St. Louis
Lyrics: Howard Greenfield
Vocal: The Four Tops

Spending my vacation in the summer sun,
Gettin' lots of action and a lots of fun.
Scorin' like a bandit 'til the bubble burst -
Suddenly it got to be September First.

Woe is me, all summer long I was happy and free.
Save my soul, the board of education took away my parole.
I gotta go back, back, back to school again.
You won't find me 'til the clock strikes three;
I'm gonna be there 'til then...
I gotta go back, back, back to school again.
Whoa, whoa, I gotta go... back to school again!

Geometry and history is just a pain,
Biology and chemistry destroys my brain.
Well don't they know that I deserve a better fate?
I'm really much too young to matriculate.

Well mama please, your child's come down with a fatal disease.
Mama said, "Come on you lazy bum now get your butt out of bed!"
"You gotta go back, back, back to school again!"
It's bye-bye fun, get your homework done,
You better be in by ten,
I gotta go back, back, back to school again.
Whoa, whoa, I gotta go... back to school again!

I got my books together and I dragged my feet,
Then I saw this angel boppin' down the street.
I said, "Hey, pretty baby, howsabout a date?"
She said, "I'm going to school, and I can't be late."

Well, I can see, that look in her eyes was sayin' "Follow me,"
And I was caught - I thought of playing hooky, but on second thought,
I gotta go back, back, back to school again.
You won't find me 'til the clock strikes three;
I'm gonna be there 'til then...
I gotta go back, back, back to school again.
Whoa, whoa, I gotta go... back to school ... again!!!

2009-01-02T20:58:00.002+08:00

I almost went to seletar reservoir today ! Almost , due to some reason i didnt . But i really want to go ! I really want to . It's a place where i can just chill there .. Different from the rest of the world. I dont know if anyone understand this desire , i hope someone do haha ... Never i'll go alone .

Anyway school was good today , Mdm Jas came up to me during flag rising and told me what she hope i'll acheive by end of the year . So it goes

Mdm Jas : Gabrielle , this year i would really like to .. ( i cut in )

Gabrielle : Haha i know , 100% attendance , haha , i know .

Mdm Jas : Yes , ( she's surprise , but kind of expected this ) Good , yes i shall see you more often , so your hair is unacceptable , your specs it's not acceptable , i need to get Mr Siva (DM) if it's acceptable , as long as he approve , it's okay . Your socks , please get a new socks by next monday .

Yap ! hahah so this is how i start my day . The funny thing is , this kind of conversation is normal for my school . I guess this conversation is the reason why i dont feel like going back to school .. Attendance .... Arghh , the rest of the day was boring , until recess comes along . Nope , before recess it was quite interesting , the Ace talk . It's not the Ace-learning talk that is interesting , it's the front that is funny ! It's too small . Haha , but i love my principle for that , she's so real . At least she's real .. Haha

Anyway , recess was cool , i miss canteen's food ! hahah , went mad with AK and Eunice ! That Eunice ! Haha she told AK about this thingy that i'll totally gross out . AK keep making fun of it , so she did it and i knock my head against the metal frame of the cca notice board. Thanks to Eunice's information . Juan joined us today , it was cool ! Hahha , she's nice . She's quiet . She treated me a VICO chocolate soya milk ! hahah ! I love her , she's the nicest person . I shall treat her back ! Hhaha ..But eunice is mean , now AK got something to provoke me ! ( eunice this part is for you ! haha but i still love u :)jk k?)

Lately , i've been running with God's strength , going with wisdom . Trusting God , not pushy , nothing . Relax and stuff but i'm with God's strength . Alot of stuff i can feel on the spiritual but i cant see anything on the natural . In another words , i see nothing on the natural hahha ! yap ! NONO but dotn walk by sight but walk by the 4th dimension ! ok

I need to have the medium for God to move !

OK ! So i'm gonna love school for everything ! Ok , i love Eunice , AK , Juan , they make school more humane ... haah . My Co form teacher is my VP ! hahahaha

Loving you school... i'll try !

Looking forward to school tomorrow

2009-01-02T01:26:00.002+08:00

Hey , i just cant sleep cause i've just took a nap at night .

Suprisingly i'm looking forward to school tomorrow ... I've no idea why .I'm just feeling so happy now , i've no idea why .

I've so many stuff on my to do list now cause i can meet quite a few people tomorrow . I'm really looking forward to it , it's so contradicting to how i felt a few days ago , choosing to be ignorant about the fact that the school is starting real soon .

I think i become physco or something , i got back the feeling of mugging that i use to have when i'm in school last year ... O so weird calling 2008 last year . Eunice , Alicia and Yu Juan have been making an effort to make me stay in school day after day . Will be mugging with Yu Juan next monday again ... I'm gonna try to read through all my notes tonight before i sleep , since tomorrow wont be an official school day ....I dont need to stay awake in any of the talks...

I'm looking forward to pass the cards that i've long written for the people in school ... I'm looking forward for the lunch with Yunita , then i need to drop by the seletar reservoir ! haha , ok i really need to go , i've been yearning to go ... I want to go , i need to go ... There's this thing special there , there's this thing special there . I guess when you've tons and tons of things dorning upon you , you just need to go over to breathe the fresh air , think it through , it's just different .

Not that i've a very stressful life , but i want to go over and really think through and really smile just relax and remain cheerful .. I discover the way that i need to maintain this season is joyful , not happy but joyful , faithfilled , i need to maintain this medium that God can move in ... Yap!

It use to be just for my own to stay spiritually healthy , but now no more it's for my people also that i'm responsible for , most of all , i'm a christian that's why .

2009-01-01T03:22:00.002+08:00

Hi !

It's 3.32am now... it's 2009 . So weird right , calling the year 2009 .

To be honest , i'm definately not looking forward to it . God has brought me far ... I thought that 2008 will be useless as everything is mundane , God proved me wrong . Even though physically i didnt grow much , but inside i did ... In fact 2008 was disastous , with tons of unwelcome stuff , unwelcome matters , irritating problems , haunting bothers ... I guess alot of stuff happen superificially in 2008 , but of course there's more deeper bothers had taken place in the God .. I guess through all these i grew alot ... It isnt the way i expected it , but is the way i'm blown away by ... God is indeed God ... Problems tons , but igrow alot ... It's an area that was blind in my life in my whole christian walk , but it's cool la ... Tons to say , but i shall not blog it here :)

2009, it's definately something i'm not really that excited about to be honest . I feel that everything has just started , it's not suppose to end soon ... But i feel God telling me 2009 is just a start ... How it's gonna be a start when O levels comes along the way ? OK , trust God ... I need to keep the ball rolling but the temptation of mugging is calling me daily ...

Today , i guess my initial plan was to hang out and stayover . But suddenly i want it different , i want to spend it with God . I want to dwell there for as long as i can ... Ultimate it's Him Whom I'm inspired to do all the things i wanna do . I want to end the whole note , with a loud bang .. Loud bang of God ...

2008-12-30T12:24:00.002+08:00

hi !

Yesterday was good , spent the whole day with my parents ! haha , i think God answered my prayer man ... He's really a true God .

Went for lunch at breeks with my parents ... The food there was good , it was delicious .

The curry chicken is nice , quite funny right , they actually sell curry chicken culet at Breeks .. haha Yap so that's breeks

I went shopping with my dad , it was good , he made me try alot of clothes , actually is the same clothes just that is different sizes haah ..

Planned stuff for the whole week ! It has been great ... i wonder hwo i will live through , but i guess it's possible .

Shall do my games stuff

2008-12-29T12:36:00.003+08:00

I'm waiting for my The O.C to load ! hahaha ...

Ryan and Marissa is just so waa... They are meant to be together , but Luke the extra kept popping out to spoild them ...

I'm hanging out with my parents today , my mum brought 4 shirt for new year ... Madness , i physco-ed my mum to bring me to espirit to buy some shirt ... haha

My guitar is bad !

I'm in love with Sum 41-with me !

Ryan is quite a poor thing you know , his mum ditched him , his dad is in the prison ... He's like thrown all over like a ball ... Poor Ryan ... What he has a very good fashion sense , he just put on a singlet and a jacket and he look totally cool ..

Fake

2008-12-29T01:23:00.003+08:00

Do you ever felt like blogging is the least real place u can ever find to really know a person ?

Cause people dont really post their deepest thoughts on a blog ... At least not on a public post like this ...

Suddenly i felt that blogging is just so unreal ... If things i post on my blog is what i thought of , i guess it's really an understatement on how much a person thinks ...

Who on earth will post their deepest struggles on such expose post ...Hahaha , so i guess the conclusion is a blog is seriously just a blog , nothing deep , something superficial ...Something unreal ?Maybe a struggle on the post is 1 out of 100 a struggle a person is facing ?

I guess there's so much into a person's life than just the superficial ... I want to know so much more .......... So much so much so much , and i guess the only reason we know nothing deep about a person's life in blog is because there's no relationship ? Arghhhh ...

Haha blogging is entertaining but is just something that's just like that , nothing special nothign much ... Hahah , hope someone agree with this ....It's just a sudden urge to blog about this ...

I guess bloggin is fun , so i think i'll still blog even though i find it meaningless ...

Watching the O.C now , i'm starting all over from season one . it's just cool , ryan is cool !!!!!!!!!!!

How wonderful will it be if everything is so real ...But sadly it isnt

2008-12-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

Hi !

Woo!

Today was great .... expecting something serious at home , but hey nothing happen ... but no one talk ...As usual ...

Well anyway , discipleship class was good ! real good , i got to ask a question that i yearn to ask Pastor Lia ! Haha finally i didnt stumble when i talk ! I didnt calll Pastor Lia , mother ! hahah .. I'm proud of myself . Learn alot from Pastor Lia today , i guess is the heart most probably . I love people sharing heart man , cause i can catch it ! hahaah , that's my strength .

Yesterday .... On the train ... It's just cool you know , knowing the difference between zone f being just a zone or zone f birth forth tons of zones.... it's really exciting but yet it really establish the next generation ...

How i yearn to build people like how Pastor Lia build the 9 stone ... It's just so great , 9 ppl birth forth another zone , another cg .... So great thinking of it . But somehow it's not just as easy as i think we it is . it's alot of sowing ....
How privillege it is to still be able to hang out with Pastors when the church is 1400..

even though 2009 is definately unwelcoming ... I really wonder what it will happen and what it will bring , just like how what 2008 brought ... Cool ...

I'm in a contemplative mood now haha .

2008-12-28T00:27:00.002+08:00

Hi !

Today is a TIRING DAY , should i say after 1030 till all the way to 10 at night , i was pack with stuff . It was tiring but fruitful . Very fruitful . I love being around my leaders so much . It's just different , it's just a thrist hungry for more of them .. It's just me :)

I had been thinking alot lately , while walking to bubble tea shop , while going home ... And i finally got an answer . Maybe is the just the problem with expectations in people that makes me feel that way ... Not my people or leaders but maybe my peers i should say ... Maybe expectation should be the whole reason of the whole lots of thoughts and roller coaster mood . Expectations , we shouldn't set standards on our peers on how we should be treated or what . Eg , A must be there when i'm down , X must be there if i fail my exams ... I guess if it's real friend they will arise in the midst of the prob ... No need to put securities on someone , surely we should but it on Pastors and Leaders ...Other than that , rest is to God ...If ever someone will concern or what . I'm sure someone will be there but it might not be someone u expected i should say ...At least everything for now it's not someone i expected who came ... I think maybe we should just be contented than to be pin pointing . These whole lot of stuff dont apply on how we should be with leaders and sheep .. .But i guess peers wise , it's should just be contentment and stuff .. As for me , i shall be contented by how's my relationship with peers and stuff , i guess if we're close then we're , if we're not , there's no point forcing ... Why do i come out with all these , maybe is fear of falling again and again, pain is just hurtful ... Maybe... hahah ... just some crap i'm blogging .. Yea this is sort of what's going through my mind lately .....Not really an impulse , but neither is it official or correct ... It's just some crap that's stuck up there....

This is what i learnt though the MRT rides and people around me ... It's not an emo post k , i think the whole thingy should just be simple ... Just like how it's suppose to be ... Not attention seeking kind ... Totally no one particular in mind for the attention seeking part ... I guess all should just take it easy ... Man , hahah friendship is something pure , while the whole thoughts and emotions make it complicated lately , finally i sort it out :) Just take it easy , it they are not meant to be then they are not meant to be , no point fitting a square into a circle . :)

Yap , so no more emo post for this season .. Maybe i shall go on an emo fast . It's just some superficial thoughts man haha ... If it's deeper i guess i wont post it online ... Which i think everyone has ...

Had a good meeting with Dom and Lyn in the morning with some of the ppl , it was tense , but i guess the message is clearly put across ...Yea ... it was real tense though that's for sure ...

I'm really sleepy , but i really wana read some online novels lately , so i did , i'm reading Somewhere between Longview and Miami ...It's quite a nice novel ... Nice and simple ... i live simplicity ... I hate things turn out to be hundred times more complicated ... Hahah!

TMR will be great !

Joy upon bothers...Is ppl that complicated ?

2008-12-26T22:12:00.004+08:00

Hi all !

haha , i'm tired ... Ok , it's a fact , i'm really tired. I guess it's because my mind is preoccupied by some stuff that i encounter lately ... Haha ... It's not really a problem , it's just a bother . You get what i mean ? It just eat you up and all ... Gosh.. Ok it's really bothering me now ... Well , there may be problems but doesn't mean you need to solve it NOW !

Hahah , great , it's a great day . I manage to fulfill my promise to AK , meet her up ! It's really a great get together ... Yea updated about our lifes , actually mainly is AK updating her's i just listen ... It's nto really exactly good news , but i believe it happen for good...

Eunice is back and gave me a nice sweet notebook , i really like it , i like disney stuff .. I think they are cool . As in people who work behind the whole world of cartoons must be some perfectionists . Plus disney's stuff isnt exactly childish ... In fact they talk about romance , high school , feminist politics , school commitments and basically teenage struggles and do give constructive suggestion at times ... OK that's AT TIMES . But i always think that ppl who work in disney are perfectionists . Everything is flawless from the cartoon to the plot . I mean put aside the artist and the whole hollywood and haywire celebrities' life ... Disney productions are very good , in fact excellent i should say . Their plot might be the same old thing but if you realise , they always start well and end off well . There's no ending that leave us hanging ... If you notice , every cartoon character are flawless , from their facial features to their dressings ... It's all cater to the cartoon's personalities ... It's flawless man . That's why i like disney so much . Not just the cartoon , but i like the excellence behind the whole thing .. Disney dont pay me to say the whole chunk of compliment .

Yea... So life is still great , at least when i see the soft toys infront of my desk i feel warm ... Ok there's no link but the soft toys do lit my life up alittle when i'm down ...Sometimes you do feel quite lonely facing some stuff , there's always soft toys ... Ok it's a little deprive , but it works for me. :)

School is starting and let's just take it as we dont know anything about it . Let's just take it as we dont know 0 levels is coming ... Let's just be ignorant for once ... Great... it's just a lame excuse . Just forget that part k :) I shall love it i shall love it. AHhh !

Ok maybe ljx , chelsea and i shall live in a ignorant life for now , pretending we never know that first day of school starts on the 2nd of Jan even though we are students for at least 10 years ...

God bless ! I'm joyful ...

2008-12-24T09:50:00.002+08:00

I deleted the previous post ! Haha , cause .. it's not really avoiding la ... Just that i need faith and i need to delete things that's faithless..... 8 shall come man !

2008-12-23T02:30:00.002+08:00

Ahhh! cards ! Ok , i have a list and i'm not going any further .. To perform at my best quality , i shall rest for now ... Hahaha

Life is still great i guess ... I dont want 08 to end i seriously dont want !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyone can like hold back time ! I dont want Os when Helene and Wei Ling is going to sec1 ! What a time ! Make me detest Os more ... OK for God i shall do it .

But i really dont want to go for Os ....

2008-12-22T12:43:00.002+08:00

Hey ! I'm at home now .
Just come back from yishun satelite church ! it was fun there ! hHAHA ALL THE CRAP ! I seriously feel very awkward when ppl look at me , stare in my eyes kind ...
I guess that's why i have stage fright ! hahaha.

I love Relient K ! Just like Van Han !

The ice-cream yesterday , was like madness ! Today i was like coughing ! Madness !

Ok , it's madness ! I realise there's alot of anonymous blog reader around . As in they read the blog and dont tag ! ( ok that sounds like me , cause i dont really have the habit of tagging )

Im charging my psp ! hahahaha ! Yap! Then i'm gonna get myself pray up . You know when ppl speak a lot of nonsense to you , it doesnt really lift you up . So i guess i need to edify myself ! hahah !Hahah yea , i guess this is the reason i remain so cheerful after so many nonsense is happening around . I think prayer is a responsibility also . We must be responsible to keep my people and friends in prayer . yea

2008 is coming to an end . Seriously i dont want it to end so soon . 15 is the best year in the whole of sec school life . You have the freedom , you have the age , you have the friends . and for me i have my purpose also . It's like everything is at the right place . But 2008 is like the shortest year in my life ?! It's madness , so many things but so little time . I really dont want it to end , but i have no choice . 2009 is coming , it's not as appealing man . the exams the mugging . But next year's christmas marks my freedom too ! It's just a year ! O come on Gab !

But 2008 has been fufilling.

Had a meeting with Dom with some of the F1 and F4 ppl . Ivan joined us not long after . It's cool man . Well i guess if i didnt learn anything . Something that i'm impacted , is to treat every inte like when you first started to lead . Remember the hunger to get them when you only lead 1 people ? remember the dissapointment when they dont come ? Rememeber how significant they are to you when you only have 1 person in your team . I guess we all need to just be like that when we lead a person . Not being indifferent when we grow bigger . But every one still remain the significance in you as you first started to lead . The eager to get EVERY SINGLE ONE back must still remain just when u first started to lead. yea , that's what impacted me ...

I guess that's a gift from God , i'm totally 0 in talent talking about leadership . But God is kind enough to give me a heart . And that's the best thign He can give . Cause with it , i can catch almost the core of every meeting ... The insides of everything . The oooze in a fruit , the pearl in a shell ... Yea... So cool right God ? A heart and everythign will come along....

Matt long

2008-12-20T00:00:00.005+08:00

Hahah this is matt long! I've been talking about matt long ! But no one knows him! So i've decided ! I should blog about him for once ! . Well , i dont think he can stand alongside with chace crawford ... But he has this very nice dimple and unshave moustache ... yeaa ! So that's matt long for you guys ! It's like a mini gallery of Matt Long . He's not prestigious person ... But he's features are very detail ... You know his eyebrow is at the right place kind ... Yapyap . Ok i shall stop analysizing him . Before i start going into gory detail and start disecting him ! Hahha .. Yea that's MATT LOOONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG . Well even though he is matt long ......

2008-12-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

Today's great ... I suppose , i spend most of my time studying ... At least attempting to study?

CG is good , it's a little bit different but still can ! haha ... yea .. i hope i didnt crash it ...

had a very interesting dinner with jiayi and priscilla . we can start a feminist movement there haha ... It's like female talk ? Ok Jiayi was like super funny . She's craking some really weird jokes which is like super funny !!!!!!!!!

Studying was good ... especially when my laptop is not around... haha thanks to charmaine who took it away . And my sister who insisted not to let me use her pc ! ...Great!

I was trying not to be carry away by the sounds of the jingle bell . hhhaha , but the literature book is too asian ... It's like super traditional about hwo she should carry our selve with chinese's dignity , which the book call it " chinese's backbone " ...
Great ... Study ahhh ! I;ll try i'll try!

2008-12-18T09:44:00.002+08:00

Hi people !

I woke up at 8am today ! Miracles happen . But i'm suppose to wake up at like 130am yesterday . I asked everyoen i could find to give me wake up call . They all did ! Just that i couldnt hear .

LOL. my stupid sister called me to post for her,btw, i am sandy.
she now going toilet to brush her teeth and face for the sake of pocky.
she is hungry for now. i manage to get her some food.hahahahah.
she always wanted me to say she not fat.
hhaahahahahahah~~ she also manage to write my name in her shit list.
3 times in a roll. weee. so happpy. i wanna make her write more.
gabrielle PP you are stupid:D

I believe in You... I love CHRISTMAS!

2008-12-17T10:44:00.003+08:00

Today i woke up and have the urge to worship God . Worship Him with the song -I believe ... 5 mins later my parents came back . Then everything gotta stop haha ...

I was trying to study yesterday , but all that were in my mind was CHRISTMAS CARDS , CHRISTMAS CARDS , CHRISTMAS CARDS! Ok what a weird reason ... The weirdest thing is that , there isnt any christmas atmosphere in Singapore ! madness...

I was looking at the cupboard that i need to pack today ... Ahhh .. Full of my stuff .... My unwanted stuff . it just look horrendous .

O gosh my dog is sooooo cute ! Sandy just taught him this command that he will lift up his paws. Ok but when we want him to lift up his leg , we must say "hand" . Which make no sense , cause he dont have any . But if we want to train him to "leg" ,it's harder ! Hahah cause in that case he will raise up his leg when we say "hand" and "leg" . Which makes no sense at all !It's like oxymoron !

So i dont know if it's good that my dog has learn a new command or is it weird that he learn something that is opposite of the fact .

So that's what happen when u get Sandy Woo to teach your dog commands . it will succeed , but it will always end up with some weird stuff . That's my sister ...

I wonder is it a Woo family thingy or is it just her ... I guess it's a woo thingy . Or at least it's like me and her kind of thingy ... We tend of do things that turn out weird . call it a talent then . haha a gift from God ... I should call my sister oxymoron-prone ... No haha i should call her moron! Moron !!!!! hahah ok , that's so mean ... But to her the meaner the better

I've new updates on my shit list ! hahahaha !

2008-12-16T01:12:00.002+08:00

Just finish watching angus, and the perfect snogging . Ok it's a nice movie . It's not that nice till it's worthy to be watch in the cinema . But it's generally nice . Hha

But it's quite disgusting too . i mean if you ever imagine you're the main actress , it will be quite weird . I wont want my mum and dad to be in the same party when there's another person's existance . Ok u'll catch me when u watch . Ok , the plot is alittle deprive . When the person thought that her mum is dating a constructor helping out in her house . when the constructor likes guys . It's really a very paradoxical , hilarious and senseless movie . But it will just make u laugh ur mind out . I was laughing to the computer screen myself ... So interesting !!!!!!!!

Ahhhh!I'm trying to write some christmas cards now ... It's just a blink of an eye and christmas is coming ... So soon ... too soon

I'll hang on to You

2008-12-15T23:03:00.002+08:00

Fast forward... Met up with Sandy and Daphne ... Sandy told me about some nasty news which rob our smile away ...Parents....Today... While walking home ... I ask Sandy . If she's affected by dad and mom . She shake her head and pace up her steps ... She walk so fast that i couldn't catch up... And i know the answer isnt "no" ...

Listening to Today ... It brought alot more peace into my heart like never before for the day ... At least there's some life speak into my life for the day .

Today , met up with chelsea , Nic . Jomain came along after mugging ... It was great . I guess they have a great time bullying me ... Well dont worry i'm not very angry at the gallery .., Maybe just alittle piss off . Maybe i just felt that pangsehing isn't really something funny at all . But a smile everything is gone :) No hard feelings buddies :) Yea ... it's fun .. Especially the ouching by jomain .

Nicholas isnt as mean as i thought he is . He is nice ! Ok la , but he still very very irritating ... But he's very nice .

I bet chelsea is gonna tell the whole world about the " you're so irritating you know " incident in topshop to the whole church . So how i think Chelsea is born a loud hailer ! Hahah ... But she's nice . A very nice friend who make my cousin think i'm les .... But she's very nice la . At this she can be count on when trouble come . Definately not a fair weathered friend

Jomain went mad being bullied by nic ! Hahah , she didnt really get her bag ... Hahah ... Haji lane isnt as exciting as the chelsea's 1st visit . This man approached us , asking us if we want shisha ( is it how i spell it , who cares ... it's too unhealthy ) Hahah ! Yea but we definately dont look 18 ... Hahah !

The only thing that i remember is definately the red couch that i doze off on . The day is just so tiring ... Climbing up and down the cracking staircase . The amazing thing is that i didnt roll down from any of the staircase . On the other hand , jomain's leg cramp and she start walking down the stairs ... Every step ends with and " ouch " It was so funny that i start to imitate her . She's so cute

O and we attempted to spot this red car and haji lane . But we only saw a red beetle driving pass ...

family is exhausting ... tiring .. suffocating lately ... i guess everyone in Woo is feeling this way ... it seems like happiness is just temporary there . Fight would always conclude each day ... If divorce is ever gonna come along , i'll never be surprise ... Hahah But well ... I'm still happy to declare that i'm having a joyful day . I choose to be joyful . That's something no one can ever take away from me .

I'm joyful ... :)

It's a day after all

2008-12-11T12:26:00.003+08:00

Hi !

Just wake up from a long sleep . Ok , not really long since i slept quite late last night .

AMT is cool even though is was tough . When Garrett explained about the grading and how are they gonna run the AMT , i'm quite scared , cause it seems like we'll never know what will happen next ! Haha.. but when it end , it's not really that scary afterall ...Even though it's quite scary , it indeed train us to alot man . It really take the desire out of you to just open your eyes on the second day's session .

Ahh , today can i say it's a joyful day . A happy day and a joyful day is different . Happiness can be take away but joy is inside of you . SO you can be joyful and not happy . Yea... I'm joyful for the day...

2008-12-02T02:25:00.002+08:00

My last post of the week . Ok i'm posting so much today , cause i wont feel like posting any thing for the rest of the week . Plus , i'm waiting for my sis to sleep so i can sleep . Ok great...

Had a great talk with VH . haha it's not really a talk , it's a talk at. me talking at VH ... Must have tortured her . But good la .. Actually we didnt come out with any solutions ..

I think life just need to move on .. Instead those are small stuff ... we'll see what we can do when it gets too bugging .. But for now , leisure shouldnt be the first on the list .... There's nothing i can do .. It occurs naturally ...

Haha

Well , i'm really tired , but my sister insisting of staying awake
so irritating !!!!!!! SANDY WOOO ! WHAT"S UR PROB ! Your light is long and i want my fan back ! hahahahah

2008-12-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

O yea , have a talk with Jomain ... Some stuff i can relate to , some i cant really ...

I was thinking about it and i guess it's experience ...

A lot of times we think that we're experiencing bad stuff , and it bring no good to our life , just another burden...

But i think it's really something that really helps you to relate to other people ..

When you ask someone if they are okay ...After knowing their situation .. Some just say they are ok ... But only if you been through what they have been through then u will know if the "i'm ok" is just a understatement .

Not saying that when u dont experience the situation that u will nto understand , u will , but i guess the one who have been through it can relate more ... Real more ... Until you can identify if it's real or onot...

I guess it's good , so dont be deprive over some stuff that we've been through . I think alot of times when we are in something , our feeling will get exagerated . At least the people around us will think that our feelings are exaggerated . Only the ppl who have been through thinks that it's ok . Cause they felt that way before ...

Yea so i guess , we dont need to be very deprive over stuff that we're going through , be it good or bad ... It's an experience that we cna relate to another person that we will meet in our lifetime ... Yea...

That's how i feel after hanging out with Jomain ... Not something that we talk abotu , but something that i think through on the bus back home... hhaha

so beverly hills chihuahua is good . The german sherpard is cool man ! I like it more then papi...

Craze for Matt Long day 2 !

2008-12-01T12:31:00.002+08:00

I woke up at 11 today ... Ok i know it's kind of late . Haha , well i woke because i receive alot alot of smses to inform me about stuff . And i realise all the people have already woke up ! So i just pull myself up to plan all the stuff from follow ups and everything . Haha early in the morning... it's great i manage to finish and comfirm most of the stuff ... left a few uncomfirm ... yea......

Well , it's good started the day with a good note ... My sister didnt really blast any songs for the day ...

O ... I overheard my mum's conversation with daddy . She wants to bring us to vegetable farm ... My family is alittle unique here , they like this kind ... Chalets , animal farm, fish farm ... I remember when i was 13 , we visit the pasir ris farm every week until i'm sick of it , cause every fish looks the same to me ...

Have a good chat with charmaine through sms , haha , well it's all good man:) real good :) i hope she caught the heart behind the whole thing .. But i'm quite confident she did .

My mum is gonna resign from her work ... gosh...

o i'm catching the beverly hill chihuahua with my folks and sandy woo ...

I'm in love with this song call stand up by melee

I got in a fight over some stupid insecurities.
Stepped out of the light.
When did we lose our old identity?

Now my white flags are waving around
'Cause you don't need your best friends bringing you down.
Something in the air with the smoke and the fire
Got in my eyes, our eyes singing,

Stand up, stand up
Can I be strong enough?
I'm trying hard to be myself again
To be myself again.

I've been tripping over all the rules
Living my live somebody else's way.
I've been sinking on this ship of fools,
Following orders that I can't obey.

Now my white flags are waving around
'Cause the choices I've made ran me into the ground.
Someone's at the crash site digging me out.
I hope it's you, I hear you singing to me

Stand up, stand up
Can I be strong enough?
I'm trying hard to be myself again
Stand up, stand up
Brothers be strong enough.
We're trying hard to be ourselves again
To be ourselves again.

When plans go wrong they won't set the sun.
When plans go wrong they won't ruin the day.

Stand up, stand up
I gotta be strong enough.
I'm trying hard to be myself again.
So stand up, stand up.
Brothers be strong enough.
We're trying hard to be ourselves again again.

Stand up, stand up (Stand up, stand up) [x3]
Stand up, stand up, stand up!
Stand up, stand up (Stand up, stand up) [x3]
Stand up, stand up

I'm in love with melee , even though the musicians are not very appealing ... But they produce good songs ! hahah .

I cant wait for the week to start and to end too . cause it will be a madness week , i planned the outings which really takes up everyday , and the week seems pack .. Then i realise i still got my follow ups , so by the time i squeeze it in ... It's hectic ... hah abut i still got a day to my family ! hhahha , actually is half a day .. hhaha Well so it;s really going to be a busy week , i wonder how i'm gonna live through ... haha but seeing Lynette and Dom being so busy , it's like madness life , i think mine is just small case . So i rest my case

I'm talking to my sis online now , she's just sitting infront of me ... Sandy woo !Alot of times , i think we communicate through msn more than talking face to face , haha ... since msn is closer ... But our conversations are very funny ... Hilarious ...

Gabrielle says:
hey dont u think our sir name unique ?
Gabrielle says:
u can woo woo here and woo there .. You can woowoowoowoo , woo! , woo.......
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
no. everyone is using in their's blog.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
not unique lor
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
!
Gabrielle says:
but it's our sir name !
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
its sur
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
not sir.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
surname.
Gabrielle says:
u some see ppl , lee ! or Lim ! or Lam ! on their blog
Gabrielle says:
it's wooo ....

♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
haha!
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
helllo!
Gabrielle says:
yea ?
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
i miss you leh
Gabrielle says:
Waaa....
Gabrielle says:
It dont sounds very attractive
Gabrielle says:
cause it comes out from ur mouth
Gabrielle says:
u got what motive ?

♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
eh, i got no motive lah
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
dnt think until i very wat leh
Gabrielle says:
i dont get u ?
Gabrielle says:
oooo
Gabrielle says:
i got it
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
yeah.
Gabrielle says:
it's rare man
Gabrielle says:
that u're this nice ....
Gabrielle says:
ok , nonono , i still think you have motive
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
I DONT HAVE!

♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
who is matt long
Gabrielle says:
haha my boyfriend !
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
eew. he have such a bad tase ._>
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
._.
Gabrielle says:
is he has
Gabrielle says:
stupid , hey i think i can find a boyfriend now if i want
Gabrielle says:
there's always something call icg
Gabrielle says:
icq
Gabrielle says:
as if u dont know
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
icq! no no!
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
thats super dangerous man.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
later you will get a date rape or wat.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
omg, i am so anxious.
Gabrielle says:
stupid .
Gabrielle says:
u're funny man
Gabrielle says:
i'm sure there's motive
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
I dont have lah. trust me once will you!
Gabrielle says:
i bet u wont be so nice if i stop daddy from watching beverly chihuahua ...
Gabrielle says:
hahaha
Gabrielle says:
u see !
Gabrielle says:
o yea stupid calling me pipi
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
you dare
Gabrielle says:
stop calling me pipi !
Gabrielle says:
haha i dare !
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
i call papa dont let you go out!!
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
papa, dote me mroe!!
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
haha
Gabrielle says:
yea well that's true that papa dote u more
Gabrielle says:
that also shows that pa care less of me
Gabrielle says:
therefore he wont really care if i go out or not
Gabrielle says:
haha
Gabrielle says:
just to remind u i use to be in debate team
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
yeah i know!
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
but he dotes me more,i can order him yeah
Gabrielle says:
thanks thanks
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
i get a debate prize before yeah.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
in school.
Gabrielle says:
you think he's dog ah , order him around
Gabrielle says:
hahah ah lian debate competition?
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
nah.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
nerdy woo compeition!
Gabrielle says:
waaa , u nerdy ?
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
yeah.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
i am so cute!
Gabrielle says:
ewww....

Hahah quite funny huh

♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
why?
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
hey.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
gotta get going
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
mom's hungry i guess.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
any by the way, i now super interested in creating a blog with you
Gabrielle says:
stuoid
Gabrielle says:
bu yao gao wo de blog
Gabrielle says:
hahah
Gabrielle says:
i think she's hungry mor ethan us
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
yeah.. exactly
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
she keep want to call us to eat.
♥P. I'm overcrazy abt Chihuahuas. says:
but i wanna eat at cwp!!
Gabrielle says:
aahahha me too

haha ok ... I'm reeall starving , but my dad's not home yet ! Arghhh !

Ok OK ! Great

Love ,
Gabrielle

matt long , here i come !

2008-12-01T01:45:00.002+08:00

O gosh , i'm crazy over melee , click five and most of all MATT LONG !!!!!!!! Yap , 3 in 1 and it makes a great movie . Ok Sydney white is the movie for this season man ! It really potray the gusto of a woman ! WOooooo

Ok i'm starving now man ... Gonna get something to eat , who cares what's gonna happen next with my body ? I'm starving !

Sydney white is really a nice show ! Woooo !

I read the bible yesterday about Joshua , he's very amazing , i'm gonna read it again ! Cause i think i've not enough revelation of it . There must be something more than those revelations that i got last night !

I shall enjoy tonight , cause i've nothing on tmr . But tons of stuff to do...

this week is exciting cause i guess i'm gonna give my follow up in chinese , at least explain it .

2008-11-29T21:37:00.003+08:00

I need God now ....

Gosh .... Today is a good day .... Well.... yea except a few exceptionals ...Not that pleasant ..

Hahah well all good . Today . The bus was stuffy as there's no air con ... So irritating ... Didnt really get my bus phobia as usual but i just slept through out . it's a long time since i slept so peacefully in such a bumpy bus ... Arghh crap

Well , have been thinking alot lately , somehow thoughts just haunt you , thoughts that you know that will kill your faith ? I wasnt able to sleep last night cause there's just so many things in my mind ..Swimming and swimming... It's was so so so irritating ... I hate such stuff seriously ... I wasnt able to sleep ! Ok great

Father i pray , drop a sip of faith in me , a sip of hope , a sip of contentment , a sip of energy , a sip of security ...That i can move on , just a little bit more o Lord , for Your comission ... Give me just a sip of everything so that i can move alittle bit more lot .... Well anything You say , desperate? Hungry ? It's all good as long as it's Your presence ... As long as You are willing to give me another sip of everything to move on , I'll use the motivation You give me to sow it into another soul .... In Your atmosphere I shall move O Lord , no longer mine ...

Hahha yea i'm quite sad lately over some stuff that happen ... Not devastated , but i just need some comfort haha sometimes ... Well it's all good after i pray .... At least i found some comfort here ...

I'm listening to Mandy by Westlife nwo ... Hahah good song ....

Well on a brighter note , no matter how tough the situations are , you gotta move on .. there's so many stuff ahead to look upon ... Look at the stars in the sky but keep our feet on the ground :)

I'm gonna take the schools !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm gonna take batam ! hahah !

Since Jesus endure through 40 days and night , why not us enduring through everything .. As long as we see the light ahead , there's nothing too hard . We just neeed to see the bim of light , that's why we need God to give us a vision... So logical here ...What runs in the father runs in the sun ... We may sin , but we still have some stuff of ability to endure huh !

Come on gabby , get onto the feet and run !!!!!!!!! Rahhh ! Here i come !

i realise we all tend to put our security on someone else , in fact is anyone , and when u feel bad or offended , you felt real bad ... I was thinking why not we put it on God , cause He never fail to keep and secure us ... He never jab us , He never insult us , He never betray us , He never say things that are so hurtful , He never say things behind ur back .... Even though it may be tiring but it's definately fufilling.. Yea ... That's my thoughts in this area....

yea Ok ! So life's great , busy , hectic , tiring but fruitful ....! :)

i thank God for everything ...

2008-11-24T23:37:00.001+08:00

Hi guys !

haha , i just went for dinner with Eunice ... Actually it's supper ... I met her at 10pm for dinner . We had a good talk , surprisingly it's on the same topic ...She's real nice ...

2008-11-24T14:18:00.002+08:00

It's like 2pm now . Yunita and i had just plan some stuff just now , to get her back .... Hahah secret ...

My parents refuse to let me have magee for lunch , but they wont be back anytime soon to get me lunch .. haha ok , they wanted to get me lunch as they are going out .. But it's like 2 hours since they left and there's no sign of return WITH MY LUNCH ! So i called up my dad to ask him not to buy anymore i'll eat magee . Well he refuse to let me eat as he claim that it will cause my hair to drop . haha fine then... I shall wait .. .I'm starving !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm quite bored now , shall get some books to read ...

I just got a call from my parents ! WE came out with a brilliant idea . I will get a hair cut first , while they do their stuff , then we'll meet up for lunch ! Great !

I'm in love with the cds of orchestra that my dad collects ... he has tons of cds , those kitaro and stuff , i dont really like kitaro lately , cause his music dont bring much peace , instead this guy call dont know what and his orchestra is good , cause i sleep when i play it at night ...

Kitaro is suppose to be good , but i guess i just have too high expectations of his music !

I'm craving for buffets now ! no idea why ... Buffet anyone ? I shall get yunita to eat with me when she returns back to sg !

2008-11-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

Listening to Dave Matthew's Band now . Haha nice ! It's the acoustic kind but yet urban and airwave kind ...

I'm browsing through Flickr now , on some of their pencil drawings . Just feeling like drawing lately ....

Sent out a 12 sms att today . It's super long , i started typing at tampines and a few minutes i reach woodlands i sent out . madness , but seeing young people , people around my age and even ppl alot younger than me being so on fire.. i'm very touch too . Seeing att increase , i seriously dont mind sending a longer sms next time !

I'm super tired now ... So i shall finish this up and sleep ..

Asia conference is great ... God spoke :) Yea ... Life is great , meeting more and more people ... Less enclose i guess... haah .. Jomain is in HK now ...

There's this thing that people has been repeatingly asking me , it's nto about J__
for your info , J___ is a girl ... , ahah but it's something else , it's a question that i really dont know how to answer ... Why not you give me a answer ? Yap you ! The one who reading this , ask me and see if i tell u . Hahah , it has been bothering me for quite somewhile . ahha Yappie

I'm getting tired now .. Real tired .... Great ... Brain not functioning ...

I'm quite touch at the last part of the convention
the part where we sing that's what friends are for... Makes me think of somestuff .... In fact alot of stuff ... Haha... Something use to be good that turns alittle not so good lately... Colder .... Well... haizz

But when i put my hands around Li En's shoulder ,and swinging along and stuff , it's real cool man ...The buddy feeling , if Eunice's here and Jiayi and VH or even Jomain , it will just make the whole thing so sentimental . At least most of them will i guess :) Haha Li En is great man , we're gonna play squash together on tuesday ! Yea , that's what friends are for ... for good times and bad times .... i'll be on your side ... waa..... hm....
cool ...

Ok shall sleep now . My eyes are shutting ...Zzz...

Love ,
gabrielle

ALICIA KHOO I MISS YOU !!!

2008-11-21T03:27:00.002+08:00

Hi guys ! It's like 3.28am now , and just woke up . I was super tired when i reached home , i pulled myself up to type my report which i sent late . I was trying to get myself to sleep on the train , but it's madness my legs start aching . Rahhh...
So after typing my report , i dont even bother to let the my laptop finish shutting down , i just off my laptop main power and hop onto my dad's bed . Haha !

I was lying on my dad's bed , insisting that i'll watch the 9 o clock and my dad shall compromise to me . Haha , in fact miraculously he agreed , but i doze of at 8 plus ... Great . I just woke up ... having a bad running nose . Hhaha ! I think my body is trying to signal something to me ! I'm catching a cold . Thanks ! Now i'm feeling a little drowsy , but the rest is good .

Listening to Michelle Branch on my playlist , not bad .... Tons of people are leaving from singapore for vacations ... To Hong Kong , To Bangkok , To Taiwan... Haha , i dont think my parents will be bringing me anywhere , in fact it's like too late to book a ticket haha ! I shall enjoy myself in singapore with Darin !

Feeling like exercising now , but my muscles are aching ! Went swimming on monday , everything was good ! I swam quite a few laps with dad and went for sushi buffet after swimming with dad , mum , sandy woo ! . Everything was great . Somehow i dont understand why we exercising , since we will be consuming all the calories back in just one meal .. But i do know the purpose of buffet , cause everyone will be hungry after swimming so having buffet is definately worth it .

The restuarant was air conditioned of course haha , so in the end me and my sister froze to death as we just wore , fbt and a very thin baleno shirt ... Rahhh....

Sandy's hands and legs turn purple and lips turn purple black ! She's like a monster! Rahhh ! She went to get her PSLE results today . Dad and mum were super encouraging towards my sister . I'm so glad they are that encouraging . So cute ! I think they had lunch together . I remember when i got my PSLE result i was devastated . Crying on the way from school to home ... I called up my tutor crying... Madness ... But it only last for 1-2 days i guess haha ! I guess i was sad when subhash wasnt going to the same school with me ... If my schol ever gonna offer tamil , she's gonna get in with me man ! But sadly my school dont offer , such a racist school .

Sandy, psle is not the key to anything but Os is... haha , dont worry by the time u got ur Os , i'll help u la ! :) Provided if u want me to help and willing to pay me tuition fee :) ahahha Just joking... sisters man , blood flows instead of water or urine in our blood vessels seh , so definately will be there for u ... Even though u're so mean to me ..Arghhh ..... Waking me up everyday with ur loud music !!!!!!!!! haha Ok la , i'm such a nice sister :P I'm gonna post the list of mean stuff u did to me ! hahah I shall get u to read this!

Taylor swift is good " we're on the phone when you talk slow , as it's late and your mama dont know " haah the lyrics are nice !. Yesterday went out with dap !I was waiting for her at J.CO , ordered a cup of ice coffee... It's nice , not really ex , but energising .... I was studying there , i revised the notes i made the day before and was exhausted eventually i stopped after studying for 1 hour. so i just decided to listen to songs in my PSP and just rest in such a peaceful ambience ...Great... then continue with Twilight ... Thanks to dap who's super late ! haha as her lovely doggie chew off parts of her adaptor for her laptop !

It's a long post man ! I've been typing and writing alot ... In J.Co ... At home ...I like writing ... O yea , life's getting a little unsually lately , nothing exciting or what , but it's gradually not the life that i usually have .. Not the friends that i usually hang out with , not the things that i usually do ... Not the timing that i usually sleep and wakes up ...Is it a process of growing up or is it just somethign that comes naturally .. Somehow i dont know what to do haha , but life is definately not getting any down fall . Life is getting slower ... More time to do my own stuff for this week ! haha weird but true ... somehow i dont know what to do , i guess just let it be ? Since the whole thing is getting abit weird lately ...I'm not offended by anything but why sud... Ok hhaha shall stop that , just let things happen naturally i guess ? ..hey but i really like the feeling of doing my own stuff man ! the more carefree feeling , more time to think , much more quieter ... Hahah .... Cool...

Yap ! iguess it's jsut end here , Taylor swift is still playing on my playlist ... I'm in love with her .... Pretty , a country girl , nice , gentle , can sing , can play guitar , can sing love songs ... So why wont i love her hah !

After muggin !

2008-11-19T03:47:00.002+08:00

Gosh i finally finished an almost 2 hours of intensive mugging . I was quite determine to finish the notes for excretion in my Bio TB and i finished ! Well i actually finished half of it today , cause i summarised the other half some days ago . Yea ! Congrates .

It's like 4 now and i'm not sleeping ?! when i need to wake up at like 8 tmr for breakfast . i guess i'm out of my mind ! I actually want to do some of my literature book character analysis . but i'm dying now . Brain aint working anymore ! Haha

The worst thing is i've been studying about urine along . As excretion is about urine ! Gosh . Actually uring is not so gosh , as it's like there's only 0.2g of urea present out of 100g of urine , provided if you're a normal person . The most stuff is like water which is 96g and sodium chloride i think which is about 2 g which is the mineral salt in our body . So urine is definately not disgusting . Even though i'll still refuse to drink it or at least hesitate and very reluctant to drink it even when i'm trapped in some earthquake or soil erosion thing . hey it's quite impressive as i typed out the whole composition of urine without even refering at my book ! Wooo the mugging is indeed productive ... At least for now ...

Yea , i'm qutie bored now ! I want to go seletar reservoir . Okay , the irritating part about seletar reservoir is that you can only visit it early in the morning when the sun is raising or evening when sun set . Cause that's the best time . So i cant really go over whenever i want ! Arghhhh .... i really miss going there man !

Wooo... what should i do now ? Ok i shall read twilight ! I will have a hard time wakign up tmr

A long post

2008-11-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

Hi guys !

today was great , or should i say yesterday , since it's 45 mins pass 12 midnight .

I went over to yishun to meet up with Shilin and Grace , they're funny , and active . Very active . I was so tired walking around looking for rubbish shute number ! It's like madness . I cant wait to go for the camp ! I really cant wait !Dunking machine ,here i come !

After that we went back , on our way , we waited for Helene and Charmaine ,they were so long that i thought they fainted . Hahah went home with Jiayin , josephine and tricia . Jiayin and Josephine dropped off at their stop leaving me and Tricia . Quite cool ... She's very pretty you know ..

After that i went back to admiralty alone , i attempt to walk to Woodlands Mart this time round with another route . Well it's quite short . Maybe it's did not make any difference from the previous trip there just that the weather is much more cooler . Makes the walking more relaxing and less sticky . I went over to Woodlands Mart to video ezy and returned my What happen in Vegas VCD , payed the fine , and walk back .

this time round a longer route . I was walking on the road side . How ever , was quite tempted to walk into the gray pavement with some bamboo plants planted around . I didnt know that woodlands was such a nice place until today , indeed it's very different from yishun .much more quieter . So i was trolling through the stony pavement . As the day turns to night , it seems to be qutie cool man . Quiet . I was putting onto my MP3 , so i was in my own mood . Just walking and relaxing . Then i came out at Admiralty primary . So i just walk along half of the woodlands circle , and walk towards my house . It's like only insane people take this way out , it's like worst than a normal , road that you can take . But it's rather nice .

The night was nice , peaceful at least . Cooling , walking , sauntering ... Cool

I reached home that night , nothign in particular to rush , i'm suppose to visit the salon with Dad but he's too tired to go . So instead we just stayed at home .

I finish watching the rest of the By Your Side episodes using Mobtv . Well it's cool , i like Rui En , maybe not her look but more of her character . Something in her that cant be found in a typical teenage girl . This unique thingy ... The independent self . I like it . The strong character . Cool .

Yea so that's all for the night .

I really want to visit Seletar Reservoir again . Climb over the wooden plank again , lie there and rest again . It's so carefree ... Something different from the rest of the urban places in singapore . Even though i like the city part of it , i like the country part of it too . No preference in particular . Yea.. I guess i'm going over tmr ! Haha ... Cant wait . This time round , visit with a different feel .

O yea , i'm closer to God lately ... So much closer . Cool ...

Well , the exciting part of life now , since the rest is too .... well slow ?

I'm meeting up with Helene and Charmaine this week ! I cant wait seriously... gosh ... Madness i'm wearing skirt this week ... They woke me up on monday night just to tell me that i got to wear . They wanted me to put make ups . Hahah Well kill me first before putting make up on me . I'm not gonna do that . Yap So me in skirt . A little freak out , but i'll drag someone along .. Eunice cheong ... HAahha I'll kill you ! Hahah

Yea , that's all ... for the day , at least i'm cool for now ... Everything seems slow lately so slow ... So slow... Lost the pack feeling of last week . In fact i kind of miss it . yea ... I wonder what's gonna happen tmr .

lastly , rui en is real cool !

I'm starving

2008-11-17T02:05:00.002+08:00

Went home with Eunice and Jiayin today ... It was super cool , we talk about the muderer case about ah hao and anna , talk about gays , talk about prom , talk about tons and tons of stuff ... It was all cool . After that Eunice asked me about some stuff where by i start sharing what's really troubling me . Can see that she's really concern , somehow she's more worried than i am . It's alittle weird , but i'm really move ... Yea thanks Eunice ... Somehow she's the always there friend . She's more than that , she's the i-know-something-is-wrong , she's the " I might not have suggestion , but i'm here to listen " kind of friend . cool and real kind of friend . I love her ...

Yea Pastor shared about some stuff towards the end of the service today which really wrecks my heart just like how some people have felt . No big fat man shal take the generation man ! It's ours' . I was quite reluctant to send out some sms , but in the end did after pondering over it .It's not for some stupid reason , but i simply want to know what's going on ... Yea... I bet no one understand this part ... Hahah Ok great nvm :)

I'm starving now . Really starving .. I shall eat some chocolate ! I'm in love with the sims ! The sims here i come !

I'm gonna swim tmr with my parents...

I'm contented with where i am , i may be shifted , but still i'm convicted in Him and contented in where i am !

Some stuff just got into my mind , real evil stuff , that tries to dominate my mind , so i just took out one old sermon notebook and looking for a sermon in the notebook that Dom have shared during a discipleship class ... Contented but unsatisfied ... I guess i need it lately ... I'm all fine !

2008-11-15T09:05:00.002+08:00

I woke at 8.30 am today ... Madness cause i slept at 2.30 yesterday and yesterday is hectic !

OK i'm ,listening to shotgun by the outline to wake me up , coming up is taylor swift's cold as you . What a perfect song for a cool morning like this . I'll need to drag myself out of the bed soon ... Wash up and leave .. Even on the train there's quite a few things to plan :) I like today , the busy urban feeling is coming back . Once i'm busy , i'm back to live ! Well it's a little contradicting . But you know the i'm-on-task feeling ???

Morning is great ... I'm gonna get a bubble tea before reaching ... There's so so so many sms this morning and yesterday . Other then a few exceptional , the rest all good , some brings real well news , other's just simply info about today which is good ! Morning is good , night is greater at least i hope it is! hahah ! OK great , just receive a call from jiaxin ... Got ta rush ! . Bye !

2008-11-14T23:56:00.003+08:00

For greater things has yet to come ! For greater are still to be done in this city !

Well , team att drop, but it's still a breakthrough from average this week . Hey come on , we are growing . Have been burying all of them in my prayers . Well i just refuse to believe breakthrough cant come . Cause i can feel it . Sometimes i just feeling digging my eyes out , cause once you walk by sight , it's hard to tune back to faith walking . But when you have self control , it's super easy !

I've tried Pastor Cho's prayign on counting . I tried 100 that day . Declaring team hit 10 . I got this feeling that 15 is possible . So i shall aim for 15 . Actually it's easy . I sort of know what to do ! haha it's not so hard after all ! It's just 15 . I'm gonna lead a 100 next time , so 15 it's jsut a part of it ! Ok i'm anyhow prophezing . Haha but i still insist that it's possible ! Why not ! haha , Ok i'm gonan dig out my eyes later ! Hahah , Imagine i;m blind but i;m faith filled . then i rather be blind !

2008-11-13T20:45:00.004+08:00

When ice skating with Eunice , Yunita today . Suan Eng tag along too ! He's a very funny guy !

Ice skating is fun , when Eunice tripped and fall dragging me and Yunita along . When me and Yunita place Suan Eng in the middle of the rink and demand him to skate out . When we and Yunita were trying to balance ourselve in the middle of the rink and turning merry go round . When me and Eunice were trying to skate ... Actually is Eunice trying to skate...

I'm baking potatoes now ! Waaa ! Yunita is going back to Batam . I'm gonna miss her badly ! Badly !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Ahhhh ! Hahaha i bet she's gona miss us too !

...great life without Sandy in the morning

2008-11-13T10:53:00.004+08:00

Oh Gosh , everyone is graving for my atm password lately , as if there's something special with the password ... hhahaha well.... Anyway ... Life has beeen great lately , other than the fact that the nuisance teachers kept calling my parents and pestering them about my Os , causing my parents to pester me about my Os .... Oh gosh ... Other than that life is great ... Good ... haha ! I'm in love with the weather lately ... Cooling and stuff . How i wish there's 4 season in Singapore. It will be sooo cool man ! There will be real snow for Christmas , no rain for summer , and autumn leaves during autumn ! So cool ! You can just do whatever you want . Then i'll have a chimney and a fire place . With Mr Bean's couch and just enjoy my hot cocoa and read a book with the light from the fire . So cool right ! Ok it's alittle unrealistic here !

Then Santa shall drop from the sky into my chimney and stuck there and my fire burn him to death ? Nonono ... It's alittle evil down here ....

I'm trying to love my house more to prevent temptation from staying over at anyone's house . hahah and currently i'm proud to say i'm in love with my own house . Cause firstly no one talks other than my parents' random career planning and stuff whuch is like not that often . but seriously dislike . Secondly , Eunice Cheong stays near my house , we can have plans for breakfast in the morning and she can just pop out at my house anytime . 3rdly my team stays there and clementi ... Easier to travel ! Hahahah ! Nevertheless my Darin is here ! hahaha He's so cute ....

Currently i'm lying on my bed , my sister had left for school long time ago ... It's just a few more days before she graduate arghhhhhh ... After that , no more peaceful mornings . If you thinks that i wake up very early in the morning , you've never seen my sister life . She wakes up at like 7 ? and start blasting songs . Lately she's in love with taylor swift , so i dont really mind, nice country , acoustic . if she's gonna change to some Jay Chou or Hoobastank what's worst , Linkin Park .. I'm gonna die ! Wooo ...

Sandy woo i'm gonna get u to read this !

Actually my life's quite happening .. Somehow too happening hahha ! SO fun

I cant wait for Asia Conference ! Everything seems so exciting !!! Really exciting !!!

Ok i shall get back onto my books before my parents kill me .

2008-11-10T21:54:00.003+08:00

Today school sucks .... I got trash by my SPA CHEM . Madness .... Just dislike it .

I rushed over to Northview Pri , everything is fun and great there . The students there are the best man .They are very funny ...

Went for HQ , i dont know why but i always love HQ . I love the planning and everything ... The on task feeling.... Yea , i dont know if anyone feel how i feel...

Yu Juan is joining me for Christmas ... Ok , i shall not blog anything about how i feel . But there's alot and alot of thoughts rushing through my mind , alot i'm trying to digest . Some i'm just feeling like chunking it aside ... just dont bother solve or answer another doubt i have about a certain thing ...

Haha ......

Some time i wonder......

Questionair

2008-11-10T02:26:00.000+08:00

1. Do you have secrets?

Hmmm... Yap , but i guess it's quite expose nowadays

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?

I dont think so man ! Nahahahahaha

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Of course not . This explains my attendance . Well i dont mind if half of my class now is from 2e4 . But sadly it's not

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
First , give to building fund , then i'll get bless more . Haha just joking . But why on earth will i need to many money ? I dont know how to answer ...

5. Who In This World Do You Hate Most?

No one i guess... Maybe not in favor with there's alot ...Hatred takes too much energy out of me . So i dont really bother to hate someone ... I have 101 better things to do . Well sleeping is under the 101 too . Even answering this questionair is ... So yap .

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

It will be the best if both comes together . But i like to love someone more than being love haha .

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:
Err... Can i list out the singer instead ? Liz Phair , CCC , CHC , Hillsongs , Westlife , Blue , Busted , Avril Lavinge ( old album ) , Hilary Duff , Taylor Swift , Ryan Cabrera , Better than Ezra , Vertical Horizon , Cold play

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Nth , haha . This shows that i shall look out for more ideal people instead hahah

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?

Tons ... team hit 8 . My mum stop calling me . Holiday ! , stayover , SARS period ( no school ) , Pastor Kong in HOGC , Dinner with Pastors , Receiving special emails and meeting lynette they all , O yea and the few days out with my family when during my dog's birthday annually .

10. What makes you angry?

When i'm stuck . When something really bugs me happen ? When i get no solution for my situations . When i get into troubles in school . When some thoughts just haunt me down . Hahah But usually it's just an instant anger .

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Leader in Church . Attach ? at least on the verge .... , Smart , Uni grad .... , Family save .

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?

God , Pastors , My parents , Lynette Dominic they all ... Darin ....

13. What is the most important thing in life?

Saving lifes ? Live my life purposely , the way He wants it to be ? O yea , Darin .... He's like my darling .... In fact he is !

14. Single or attached? With who?

attached , JC

15. What is your favourite colour?

It change frequently ... Lately is yellow .
The constant ones are : Black white , grey ... The combination of all 3 . If it's alone i think it's too dull

16. Would you give all in a relationship?

What kind of giving all ? What kind of relationship ...Well , as far as i can , but surely there's parts where it's untouchable ... Like God , and some other stuff that i think it's quite unnegotiable .. The rest i dont mind givig in ... O yea i got into principle office for a friend of mine . Yap So i guess i do give in to a certain extend...
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?

How would i know . it has never happen .

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

I will haha why not , but it takes time to really adjust back someone's impression in my mind . But wouldn't be too long ... I just need a bit of time .

19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?

I might not marry you !

20. 5 people I have tagged:
Esther Heng , Vanessa Han , Xin Yi , Jiayi , Eunice

Gosh i got SPA tmr ! I'm dying nwo . Just finish packing .. O man !

2008-11-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

I'm in love with Taylor Swift ! Better than Ezra is good also ! I've been listening to their song man ! It's nice ! very nice !

O yea , I bought a packet of transparent pockets for filing ...I'm prepared
I just feel like lazing and not doing anything now . Hahah ok ok , shall do filing later . My room is filled with papers

our team hit 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All time high record .

I met Weiling today , this very cool friend of mine .She do tons of sports ! Just like me! We've plan , we are gonna do swimming , biking alot of stuff . We might just go hiking someday ! hahah You'll never know

But what a privilege to meet someone to have exactly the same interest as me . very cool ..

Pastor Kong came for the last 3 days . It's super cool man , i'm blown away again and again . Pastor Kong man ! Waaa , he is really very powerful ! He's thoughts is really very high .

Yap !!!

2008-11-08T10:32:00.002+08:00

I'm emoing , i;m emoing i'm emoing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahah just joking ... Hello Pastor Kong just came yesterday , and today i'm emoing ? Make no sense !

O yea !

I really feel that my teachers are stalking me . Tracking on every movement of mine . They called my dad several times yesterday , then called my mum several times ! It's really gettin onto my nerve .... That J! Waaaa ! Ok Ok chill .Hahahah well she's quite a bright person , she's the one that come out with NRIC numbers . So yap , a worthy competitor . THe bigger your enemies is the bigger you are . Not bad la , get such a good enemy hahaha !

O yea , i literally plan out the whole of next week ! Exciting ... Expensive !!!

I woke up at like 9 plus in the morning and start planning till now .

I wrote down all the stuff that's bothering me , then wrote down the solution . Some stuff dont have solution at all . For instance school .... Maybe installing a caller ID shall be my solution ahahhahaha ! Okok ... so yap i hate stuff without solution but cant do anything about it . Pray pray pray !!!!

Hey come on 2 more month to 0 level years ! Every minute is precious . Why do i sound so alike to army people ! I'm just 15 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH Hahhahahahaha

I was talking to VH yesterdya . She's the nicest person ever ok ! Nice nice nice . Hmmmm.....

Service with Pastor Kong was so powerful yesterday . It really pull myself up !!!!!!!! Can one la . I wrote 9 points for 0s ... i went a little mad .... Ok can one !!!Pastor Kong is really powerful . Just hang out with Jian Ming and Lynette for awhile listening to them talk , you'll know what's their level of thoughts ! Hahah

Pastor Kong is really very powerful ! He really dont rest !

O yea i had a very awful dream yesterday . Must be from the devil . But it's quite a weird dream also , thinking about it in a funny way , it's hilarious . Cause it doest make any sense !!!!!!!! Hhahahaha !

I'm trying to physco my sis to give me her popular voucher . And i got 5 bucks . She got 30 bucks in total ! Arghhhh ! Ok at least i can buy another note book k !!!!!!!

O yea i'm in love with Taylor Swif !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She's the coolest singer man ! My sister will blast her music in the morning , but it just dont sound heavy or irritating , in fact i kind of enjoy it .. Woke up and you feel so enegetic , i guess it's because of her cheerful voice and cute rhythm ...

Every sms flowing in now seems to problematic ... Haha can one la !!!! Higher level , bigger devil ! hahaha ...

My darin is tugging on me now , rubbing his face on my hand ! SO cute !!!!! Hahahah

Waaa today's post ah ...So happening !

random

2008-11-07T10:50:00.002+08:00

i'm in love with this band lately , faber drive ... Nice good , fresh !

Last day of school ... Waaa Finally !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm trying to contact my friends to check the datalogger timing .

Arghhh , my mum brought 8 box of durian back . All of us will have sore throat ! Hahahaha ...

I'm going to read twilight ,then i want to read the leadership book , then i want to reread Harry Potter , and then Million little pieces ! Good book .... Finally can chunk school aside and just read .

Well one thing that i very eager to get away from are teacher 1 , teacher 2 , teacher 3 ... Ok , i cant really name them out cause they'll read . Bleh ....

Saying how dumb you are , it's always a better idea to skip other people's classes just to attend their class ... Some times i think that my school's is very not organised .... Everything clashes !

Read read read ..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

few random stuff that's on my mind now :

1- Do i need to get mc for today ...
2-My stomach is grumbling badly
3-I lost weight !
4-I need to do filing for my worksheets , but just dont feel like doing it
5-I want to go sentosa !!!!!!!!!!!!
6-Maybe i can fit into Dap's pants this time round
7-Ice skating woooo!
8-Hilary Duff
9-I need to organise my time next week ! Only have 1 month plus left to O level years !!!!(this is really bothering me )
10-I feel like dipping into the pool now
11-I want to rent a hugging machine so that i can hug it everynight to bed , my bloster is getting on my nerve !
12-My mum is nagging again...
13-Which homework should i start from ?
14-Dont feel like going school on week 0
15-I need to get christmas card
16-Huixin's PSLE next year
17-How's Helene in malacca nwo
18-Helene's PSLE !!!!!!!
19-I need toilet now
20-I need to do housechore now !
21-I'm bored to death now ! But there's so many things i need to do .

I kind of plan out waht i'm gonna do next week and it's really exciting !!!!
HAHHAHHAHAHAHh!

2008-11-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

Eh heh ! Hahaha ... Great day great day .... 1 more day and i'll officially declare that my Intensive is ending ! No more teachers , no more principle, no more PRACTICALS! But they just leave a tons of homework behind . Waaa . School is always very cruel , they like to leave things behind , sources that trigger SCHOOL in your mind . That's worst than sleeping pills . Cause it will haunt you for the whole of holiday ...

Just now was great , set sometime aside and just spend some private time doing some private talking with some Great Man privately ... Still cool . Still able to go on , nothing can trash me .

I need to constantly repeating it to myself so that i'll be more sober haha merrier haha . Hey but it's all good k ! Until my sister start screaming at me to shut up .

MY bio spa have officially ended = no more Mr C ! No more yelling at lecture room ! Chem is coming up ! Acid bases salt haha !

Come on , life may not be the most exciting part now , in fact it's the most.. unwelcome part . But well I'm very contented about my life now .

Opps i still have my Lit hw that i need to pass up tmr , and also my bio hw . Arghhh . well i guess i'll need to teach my dog a new command . " Doggie , eat my homework up !" " Doggie poopoo on my homework " Woo ! If there's some commands i'll be the first to teach my dog . At all cause, it's useful .. From homework to teachers ... " doggie , bite them down " hahah no la just joking ...
I'm feelign so lethargic now . Homework to summit just after o level spa and o level chinese ? madness.... Ok i decided . I will be forgetting about the homework . So i'm suppose to do so ! I attempted to read my lit bk at tcc just now , but nth went in . I guess inside too pack! Hahah Must clear first . Even trucks takes time to load and unload . It's the same for my brain currently .

ice skating on wed with Yunita , will be lookign forward to it ... ice skating man ! Hhaha My fav ! Finally i find someone in the cg who moves.... Other than Jomain Lim . I shall attempt to do more sports ! Come on let's do some sports !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooo hoooooooo... ...

Yea ok that's how i'm gonna end , i shall attempt to end every post now with a good note . Before vh starts complaining that my blog gets emo .... VH you hit 11 ! WOOOOOOOO

2008-11-04T23:49:00.002+08:00

Listening to hiding place right now ... I just need stuff to get out of my life . Today is really the craziest day , running up and down the school . Life without Juan and Alicia in school is really boring . Plus , Eunice's intensive has ended yesterday .... Life is really bored in school . Got scolded by Mrs Whelan than Mr Chong today .Again !!!!!!!!!!!!!! It seems to be their life time pleasure to see me being miserable . But sorry ah , somehow after their constand scolding , i'm still the same . Well , i cant be a robot just because they want me to . There's more to life than just being a robot ...

Life is getting more and more .. I dont knwo . Mudane ?

I just type a chunk of stuff , but deleted it . it's nto bad stuff . but it's just inappropriate to be type out . I feeling like really throwing everything out of me and really telling someone ... Before it accumulates ... really feelign like hugging someone to sleep tonight ... (female of course )
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok finish screaming :) .Shall just chunk everything out to God later . That's why people needs Him . I guess sometimes you just realise that you just dont feeling telling e people around you ... For several reason? Maybe they just dont seems like someone that would like to hear all these ?

God just come in at these time . listen to you talk ...... I really love this relationship with God this way . cause he never feel to be the vessel i cry on ..... Somehow everything seems to be so much better after talking to Him . Not a verbal reply you might hear . But a relief ? A Listener ? A Comforter ? Someone who's always there ... and mean what He say .

Ahhhh

2008-11-04T00:28:00.002+08:00

Just finished 1 chap of bio ! Haha it's easy ! Somehow studying is real easy . Cause it's something i can use my might to achieve . Something more measurable ? Easier , more practical . it's smth when you put in hard work you sure achieve ! hahaha Yea , but it dont really happen all the time ...

I shall blog more now before the week gets busier !

The coffin is not nice but yet scary . I'm screaming like mad in the cinema . Madness ...

Feeling like doing some exercise lately ! I cant stand one day without moving ! Arghhh it's like flees all around my body ! I need to move !!!!

Dont feel like asking anymore haha .... Since it bug so much ..... Maybe too much ...

Friends!

2008-11-03T12:04:00.004+08:00

Hhahaa , well...

Stupid ! Hotel 626 is open from 6pm-6am ! The reason why i play with bright day light shining on me is simply because i dont dare to play it at night ! Arghhh . I'm gonna play it at 6pm and not gonna touch it anymore ! Once the sunset i'm gonna close the window !

Yesterday is really a hectic ! I was so bored the whole of last night but yet bloated and tired from what i've eat and me shopping . So i just laze at the sofa and start singing all sorts of songs. Mainly Bowling for Soup's ! It's so fun !!!! Cause i've nth better to do ! Not long after i doze off...
Woke up this morning realise that.... well , this blog may be visited by teachers especially Mrs J , Mr C or principle Mrs K . So i better be careful!

Well , lately i heard about tons of bad news from all over . Tons of feelings . The worst thing is that it dont happen on me . It make it worst . I really want to help , but yet all i can do is just to be by their side . I cant bear , i cant lighten anything . It's really a miserable feeling . If i can just camp at their house and lighten the load , i will . If i can bear the slap with them , i will . If i can meet their principle together i will . Somehow just standing by their side and walking with them is the only thing i can do .

Chelsea's right , when we all grow up , no more such problems . But there's sure other problem that comes .... Loans,unemployment, unresonable in laws , conflicts between husband and wife , me against the world ....

When we grow up , the world will be on their way attacking us . Trying to put stuff that waver our friendship . The world will be there stuffing in logical thoughts and theories that drift us away from God . For EG , networking , it sounds real logical cause everyone will be doing that in the world , your friends in uni ...Literally everyone in the world . But will you follow ? Or is your conviction strong enough to stay . Loans , everyone is having loans from the bank . In fact the package and the promotions from the banks is definately appealing and attractive , but will you push the temptation and refuse to have 2 master in your life ?

Church is getting more and more interesting in my point of view . Is the place where friendships are built . It's not those superficial , materialistic friendship . But it's the " i'll stand by your side no matter what ." there's no thanking needed , and no repaying needed . No Owe-me-one kind of things , just for a simple reason , we are friends !

The same person who crap with you , who get into trouble with you will also be the very same person who hear you crying . Nothing unique nothing special , just pure and simple . i'm really glad that i see the people around me are such person . No motive . Nothing ...

They may say things that hurt you sometimes inconspicously . But they mean nothing . Maybe a joke , maybe just a simple remark ? It's something we cant be small hearted about . I'm getting more and more comfortable in sharing my thoughts to them ...

I'm sure when we walk into our 20s , when some is on their way the ladder of success , some becoming a Pastor .Some might even be overseas studying . We may not be as close physically . But just because we rub each other off in our teenage years . Just because we have go through thick and thin with each other , the invisible connection and bond is so strong that when we walk into different walk of life . our relationship is still so close . Maybe not physically , but the bond is there ! Everyone is walking their toughest walk around me , maybe not toughest , but tough , even i myself is not easy . But i guess at this point the most beautiful thing is the friendship now . The leaders' encouragement but at the same time the friends who's with us now !!!!!!!!!!!There's Lynette who understand how i feel . My peeps , Jiaxin and Chelsea ! Josephine , Esther Heng , Jiayin , Jomain , Vh .Eunice They are the one man !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i finally got what Lynette and Dom defination of friendship

Shopping !

2008-11-02T20:48:00.003+08:00

I'm bloated now ! With abalone magee . Life without mummy at home is real tough . My sister , my dad and me were ramaging through some cabinets just now for some can food to add into our magees . We found a can of mushroom but we weren't sure if it's expired or not . Yap . So in the end we threw it away and ate a can of abalone instead as it has an expiry date on it unlike our poor mushroom ....

The funny thing is , i always know that there's a can of abalone sitting there , at the back of the cabinet . Just that i didnt want to eat it and wanted to leave it to the following chinese new year . However when i tell my dad there's a can of abalone. My dad immediately jump up and wanted me to open it up and eat it . He said that if he were to know there's a can of abalone he would just eat it . So mean ! Hhaha I knew about it all along and i dont even dare to touch it ! Hahah .

But he's real nice . He's the one who carries the bags around bugis as the ladies shop!
My husband must be like my dad . Maybe not every part but at least this part of my dad ! Imagine your husband is exactly like your dad . As if he got clone or smth . That's definately disgusting . It's as if you share the same husband as your mum ! Terrible thoughts !

Today is a great day , somehow what happen yst still ringing in my mind vividly but I've sort all things out ! It's definately not bothering me and i'm really thankful for that talk . Today i just saw the inside of me which i never see before . Smth that's not so pleasant .haha . Well today , my family and my sis's friend went to bugis for some real shopping ... Is really shopping kind . When we spot smth nice , we just buy . I asked my dad , if he's really okay with all these , cause it's definately costly . He said yea , as he seldom bring us out to shop . My mum wanted me to get some nice clothes for Christmas . So i will have nice clothes to wear when i go over to church . Even though it's not really nessesary but she's definately the nicest person i've ever had . She might be much more naggy then a normal mum , much more mediculous much more angsty and strict . But she's definately someone that loves me ! I bought this yellow mickey mouse hoody . I dont know if it's nice , it's one of the hoody on my pic up there . But i like mickey mouse personally ! Haha it's quite a unique thing . I found out that my dad and i hated bugis street ! haha

I bought twilight also ! Nice huh ! After several hours of shopping , we just cant wait to leave . So in the end i got myself some durian gelare ice cream ! I shared with my dad ! Only my dad can understand the passion for durians ! hahah

it's a real cool day ! Just a day out with my parents ! Shopping and shopping! O yea and my mum is trying to look for some real nice christmas cards for me to write on ! So nice right !

Can hear santa's laughter ? Cause i can ! HOHOHO ! Christmas is coming real soon ! And my intensive is ending . I really hate my school ! It's a place that i'm least willing to spend a day in ! Even a day is sucidal !

I've been getting alittle incoherent and covoluted in my posts ! Arghhh

I guess the word to describe me for the past 1 month is incredulous . Incredulous over miracles . Which is smth very wrong and faithless . God , i pray please refill me to a faithfilled person , just like the first time i met You , the very first time You remember ? I dont want to let the disappointment stumble my own faith ...Amen !

hahah ! I cant wait for the week to arrive . My o level chinese .... Bio SPA ... At the same time Nick Vujicic and Pastor Kong . Without them i'll just have a miserable weekend mugging for the tests and exams ! They lighten my day spiritually and physically ...

Tomorrow ... Arghhh back to sch , i'm really reluctant to return to school ... The hw .. So disgusting ... Jsut one more week ! Oo come one ! i must drag myself out of bed !It's a must !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or not it's Mrs Kok that i'll meet the day after ! Arghhh....

:Lynette's Encouragement!

2008-11-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

After eating 3/4 of my mom's porridge , she called me and tell me it's not edible .

Arghh , i just finish washing my plates and now i'm starting to feel my stomach grumbling !

I'm very tired now ... Did alot of things today , cant believe i have 24 hours today instead of 30hours .

Had a meeting with Lynette just now , i thought it would be short , haha but it got longer . I guess alot is because of me negotiating about some stuff .The meeting was great , i learnt alot even though i dont feel like sharing that much . Lynette was pushing me about some stuff , when it come the that topic then i started to fidget ..Until Chelsea thinks that i get fits ! I didn't realise until Chelsea told me . I guess that's the syndrome before i'm about to tear ? Haaha I didnt really realise about it . In fact inconspicuously i was wanting to change the topic , but i said - inconspicuously ! I think i wont react this way if everything isnt that intense haha . But i'm really thankful that Lynette pushed the whole thing . Cause i dont know i've been running away from my own probs for so long . I just refuse to believe that miracles will happen lately . I didnt know anything until lynette pushed and i cried .

So yap . but Lynette told me a lot of stuff and i know it's really meant to encourage me . I love being lead by Lynette . She seems to understand how i feel when i feel that i cant really relate to this with anyone not even my close friends , not even one .As no one seems to be going through this , and no one really ask also ...Yea i feel very greatful about it .

Chelsea was asking me yesterday .... Whether there is anything she dont know about me . I was thinking and i not really sure if there is ... But now i really recall a lot and a lot of things she dont know about me haha ! Things that happen in my life that i prefer to run away cause i just dont want to deal with it so soon ... But it's all flooding my mind now. So chelsea , if you are reading this , my answer is.. a lot . But if you - chelsea chua wants to know can always come and ask me ! hahahahah ! Bride me :P !

But everything is going great now . I just need to get onto my fight and run . Cant afford to feel down about stuff anymore , even though i'm really am , sometimes . Things just needs to move . People needs to grow .... I cant just stop just because of my own feelings .... Arghh come on Gab ! U can one !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

random!

2008-10-30T01:18:00.004+08:00

Just finished my report . I felt much better typing all out and sending it to Lynette and Dominic .

I shall start with my HW now before i get kill from various departments in my school .. From Amath to Emath to Bio !You can see my limbs outside staff room , 2 hands for a math 2 legs for emath . My head hanging outside HOD room for Bio and my body hangin outside the general office and principle office . Just joking !!!!!!!!!!

My brain is bursting and half of my brain seems to be dying already ! Madness . How am i gonna go on like this with the same amount of work load , when it's just the 1st day of intensive (for me ) and i'm dying ......

Robert Pattison ! Soo Handsome!!!Twilight !!!!!!!!

I'm yawning non-stop i need a frappe now urgently !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Disappointment

2008-10-29T21:51:00.002+08:00

My post lately seems to be getting emo-er haha . But here by i declare i'm contented with my life !

O yea today went out to Borders . Got influenced by Jiaxin to read Twilight instead of Jodi Piccout's book . Twilight is great . I guess because the whole thing before the vampire thing is so real . The clumsiness , truck , sleeping with pillow covering your face . The description is so vivid that you can almost imagine the whole scene out at the back of your mind . Jiaxin is a fast reader . Jean is smsing through out hahaha , but she's funny ! Josephine and i cracked some lame jokes and laughed alot out of some crap that we said .

Everything was great until i received some update about some stuff ..My heart sank ... It's something cant be blame , it's something that i've been trying whole heartedly ... It's something that i never fail to mull over every sunday ... Something that have not suceed till now ...

Feeling like sharing with someone but dont know how to put it to words . Maybe the fact is easy but the feeling part is another thing ... Indeed it's easy to say and hard to fufill .

Night's great , ate 2 instant mash potatoes with ketchup . Nice ! Cause i cook it .

It's 10 now , and i have a stack of homework i need to catch up with , plus another list of subject I need to revise on so catch up on my really super ultimate intensive lesson that goes faster than the train in Japan . The expectations of the teachers seems to be so high . If they dont produce good result after such hectic , torturing , demanding intensve lessons , i'm never gonna send my child to neighbourhood school ! If my child really cant make it to a good school in express stream , i'll appeal and make sure he/she enters Anderson Sec in NA stream .

At least they are not that scary .

Well , i feeling like ending the night just spending some quality time with Him . really need Him tonight ...

I lost my first time

2008-10-29T14:18:00.003+08:00

My mum just bathed , i shall wait for awhile before i go in ...

Today is not really a smooth day in school . But thank God for Juan ! Hahah !

I reached school just on time today ... 7.45am . Woo I'm not late . Hahah ! I'm always on time . You see i'm so on time ... No time differ ! Not even a minute...Not a minute earlier or a minute later...

Even before i sit , i'm called to meet Mrs Kok . Haha my principle .She's nice , alot nicer than i expected !Haha ... Yap but it's really a scary experience ! Hahah

I ended my school day with Bio lecture . With Juan sitting beside me haha updating me all the homework that i've missed out . It's really alot . I expected all these to hand in when school start next year . Instead they wanted it on the first week of intensive itself /

During Bio Juan seems to know every single thing . From ADH to Pituity ... Ah i dont know . She has already started her revision for Bio . Pro .... She did quite well for Bio i guess..

O the climax of the day is when i got scolded by Mr Chong at the front of the theaterette . It's super embarassing man . He paused and told the whole class to shut up cause he cant hear me speak .Even Juan who is sitting at the very last row , at the corner of the theaterette when the sound wave dont travel so well , can hear Mr Jack Chong scolding me clearly , word by word ! Naturally the whole class turn swtich their attention to me . But what a stupid reason i've thought of , sore throat .. When i spent my day in town hanging out . It's a fun day yesterday , but i literally need to pay for my action today ... arghhh ... tried to negotiate if i can hand in my SPA file tmr ... but to no avail ! Hahaha .... He told me that I'm not someone who score 9 distinction , if i'm like Chao Jian , he dont mind me staying at home . Haha , the followed with asking Chao Jian to talk to me ... Chao Jian is the president of the council board in school . Who is the captain of the basketball team , who top the whole level for Biology and have 5 distinctions for his overall ....when he is actually in the triple pure science class...When he asked Chao Jian to talk to me i cant help but burst into laugther , can you imagine when he's lecturing me and i'm there laughing , then i heard some laughter following me . Hahah It's qutie a funny lecturing some how . But no more ponning for the whole of intensive before i'm called for a cup of coffee with me principle again ... That's not a very pleasant invitation that i want to receive ... haha

Juan !!!!!!!!!!

Alicia Khoo will not be attending school the whole of next week due to some camp! The reason she gave me was that it's my retribution to leave her alone when I'm absent . Now is her time to abandon me . Great Alicia Khoo ! Hahaha . recess is funny . No one bothered to return to class early as no prefects is on duty ! Let's cheer for that . In fact Leonard came over and sat down with us , talking . he's a councellour ! I reached class about 3 mins late ? Alicia's class only have less then 10 people in the class , while 3/4 of mine is already in class ready for Amath lesson

Sometimes her class just seems to be far more exciting then mine .

So today ... is alot of my first time ... First time meeting the principle ... First time got scolded loudly in front of a lecture ... First time having abandon by Alicia Khoo for the whole of 1 week !

Arghh . But secondary school life will be extremely boring without these ! hahah At least i have some stories to share with my grandchildren next time .. Life will be extremely boring with out some rules to break that excites the whole of my secondary school life ! hahah Let's break the rules !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rahhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!11title of this post is i lost my first time .. Sound so wrong ...

Thoughts and feelings

2008-10-28T21:25:00.003+08:00

Another day of hang out haha ...

Today , i went home in a rather contemplating mood ... Thinking about stuff ... I guess there's nothing wrong when you get into the mood of thinking ... Just beware of the emotional devil .
I guess thinking is really somethig we need in our life -having insides to our own life ...

Life is great i guess now ... Exams ended ... At the same time Lynette's beautiful 08 is ending too . 09 is coming ... Which is the O level years .Didnt do so well this time round for my exams ...Not the bad bad kind .. but is the not as good as before kind ...Well , i expected it . I cant really expect myself to maintain the usual standard without putting in effort . But at the same time i;m not that keen to have a good result when HOGC is in the peak of growth . There's so much other things i can do , and 100 more stuff that's more important then being ahead of syllabus . So to conclude things , i'm rather happy with what i have achieve ... :)

Knowing it's time to mug for Os... So that next year wont be so straining ... But yet it's like a dilemma ... there's a fear towards the whole thing ... As getting into the momentum of mugging is simply easy ... There's a fear towards me being too caught up by it ... Which really just stop me going full force .. I guess it's a good fear ... i'll never let God be compromise by any other thing ... Not even studies...

But in the other hand ... having a good result is essential for life ... What job i'm gonna get when i grow up isnt the reason why i study ... in fact i dont really bother what i'm going to do in the world next time... but being able to relate to everyone is the reason why ... it's like the chicken rice seller and the university grad relationship ... A chicken rice selller can never relate to a uni grad ... It's just a reality where whatever chicken rice seller say stuff ... it may be fact... but it's just not valued .. In fact a uni grad ... he may talk crap ... But what he say just seems to make more sense ...

Somehow it's all just the surface of the whole thing that i was thinking ... Education is really something very essential ...Especially when you need to declare the Fact of all Facts to all walks of life ...From a business man ... entrepreneur to a chicken rice seller ... durian stall owner ... maids... That's the reason why i'm on the momentum of doing some stuff...

To be honest , i', having a hard time communicating about this lately ... I'm just seems to be on a different planet from the rest on this . At the end of the day , i dont feel like mentioning anything considering studies anymore ... Hahah In fact it seems to be a very out of the blue topic to talk about ... Jomain, we shall share the burden ...

O yea my O chinese is coming up . I dont mind having some surprises to encourage me . it's on the 5th of nov ! Hahah Aheem...u know what to do ! hahaha

Dominic have preached about FRIENDS last weekend . It's powerful . Personally i think friends is something very unique .. Friendship is not something very physical or tangible . But it's definately something can be felt . I dont have string tied up with my friends , or a friendship card or a identy card towards proving your friends or your friendship towards someone . Therefore it's not something very physical , or tangible . But it's something that can be felt by your friends , and even the people around them in a 3rd party point of view . The way we act .. the way we say things ... It's something very four dimension ... But it's largely involve by 3rd dimension stuff-gifts and stuff ... Cool huh ... Different people have different defination of friends ...

For me being a very close friend... We must really share what's in each other's heart ... I guess that's the powerful part of friendship ... bearing the burden ... Frankly speaking ... it's never easy to share something deep dark inside to someone else .. The pride , the trust , alot will come into consideration before expressing ... It takes alot out of person to share . But i guess just because it takes alot out of a person to share that's why they are close friend .... Or not they will be just any other friends out there ...

For me , being a very close friend .. cannot always be me sharing ... When time pass i'll just tired of having a one man show towards the whole relationship ... My burden is relieved but not my buddy's ... It's a rather meaningless prob i shall say ...Maybe that's why silent comes on the way , when u're just tired of doing one man show ... And choose to not share anymore ...

It's very easy to see if they are your close friends anot .. Something happen ... who will be the first one that comes to the person mind to share with ?

Friends is really powerful . it will affect someone alot ... The words said ...Things done ... Just too much to be name ...

This is what's on my mind lately ... Of course i didnt add people into the whole thing ... Just because it's not a very important part towards the whole thing . Adding them on is nothing meaningful for my posts . But Adding it into my mails is another thing . There's so much more i wanna tell Lynette ... Towards people ... friendships .... I guess before bgr comes into my life ... Friendship makes a large part of my life ...it's something that will affect me when things happen ..To be honest good friend they are tons.... Best friend there are several ... but intimate one .. the only one i can think of ..Lynette... is it suppose to be this way or ....

Never felt so transparent in my blog before haha ... but dont take it too hard ... It's not meant to be for anyone . It's just some thoughts triggered out of the people i saw on the bus and stuff ...

It's also not a very emo post ...In fact i'm in a quite carefree ... relax mood now ...

To top everything off ZOne F-169!!!!!!!! WOooo ! Let's run now ! It's time to run and never stop!!!!!!!!!!! Wooo 7 is here already .

Dream revive !

2008-10-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

Hahah ! it's 12.20am now . I reached home near mid night today . Surprisingly my mum aint furious , i guess this is because i am a good girl for the pass few days ! I'm living a perfectly healthy and all-parents-wanted lifestyle for the pass 1 week . But only for the pass 1 week haha !

Today , is a great day . It marks the day when my dream revive . I was talking with Helene and Charmaine about organising outings for the following week. As the previous all of us , the timing could not coordinate .

We were talking , and decided that we'll hit 7 by next week . If they hit i'm gonna wear skirt ! Haha! Suddenly , the drive came . We started to talk like we're some army with departments . We start to think of what we can do as an individual to contribute to the team .

I think i can have 1 airplane here .... I think i can contribute a tank here ... I think i can call my army down here ... I think i can use my radar here !
It's just an illustration , but it's real cool !

We were talking and talking , and 7 seems like chicken feet . Nothing beats a team really getting together .

I guess all my prayers for the week dont seems to be that wasted .

I've been praying my heart out for the pass 1 week . Daily , even though reality seems to have nth , but i kept on commanding smth to happen . I look like some siao , and logic tell me that nth is gonna happen , but heart just cant stop beating , and wanting more of the 4th dimension . Woo....

To summarize ... My prayer life is ..... what word should i use ? Saturated ! That's the word ! Saturated for this season . I hope there's no down pour anymore ! There's so many test i've been through , and scrap through .... Ok if there is still somemore , i'll just close my eyes and scream my way through , the more i go the more i seems to be closer to Him !

Random

2008-10-24T18:52:00.002+08:00

I wanna go surfing ! Is my life time dream , when i was young i use to dream of migrating to some country and really surf ! Tanning and surfing , with music , excitement or at least fun ! Tons and tons of Jesse MCcartney will be there ! Yummy ! Hahah !

When i was real young , i use to dream of going to some boarding school , and lead my own life . When i grow up i'll earn tons of money and drive my sport car around . I will pass by some beach and the breeze will blow onto my face . A few friends of mine will be there driving with me , and catch sun set together before returning to our individual apartments . Haha , My apartment will be big and cozy . With long leather sofa and glass coffee table . There will be a LCD screen in front of it . I'll have a full glass from ceiling to wall as my window . My lamp will be orange in colour with carpet underneath my sofa . i'll have black colour floor . I'll glass dining table with champage on it and also 4 leather chair surrounding it . In my room i'll have a king size bed with cozy pillows and booster . With thick blankets . In my toilet i;ll have bath tub and a whole stretch of mirror from one end to another . The whole theme will be in white and black and

I'll be the independent woman like Cameron Diaz . During winter I'll buy some gifts and tons of thick leather coat . With scarf and go ice skating . I'll work out in the gym i always patronize . I'll have tons of close friend and celebrate Christmas with nice champage , popcorns and midnight movies , under our thick blanket .

Hahah Go check out interior design at Yahoo or Flicker and you'll find it .

Hahah but i find it rathe boring if i'm facing the same thing daily . I wonder why will i even recall it in the first place ...Quite a funny reminiscing . But interesting , what my mind can think of at a rather young age at that point of time . Haha , truly people's dream change . Thank God my dream have change for the better .

I've been blogging so much ...

Met up with Alicia for 2 hours just now . Went to find her tailor shop to alter her culottes .

Had some laksa in the midst of waiting ... I saw this jacket that i want to buy , Alicia wants to buy it too . We shall buy it together .

We left ... Alicia left for her band , and i went to the gym . For about 2 hours haha ! Quite productive . I bet if i go over with someone , it wont be that productive. Then went home . I wanted to study actually . But i'm feeling quite indolent . So i called my mum to pick me up and went home .

Was studying at home , browsing some video , then study again .

Hahah ! Quite boring . O yea i just realise that the bubble tea opposite of the gym is nice and it's 1.10 only ! Cheap huh ? The people there are real nice too . I was there waiting for my mum's arrival , and was drinking the choc milk tea . I added extra pearl and it's only 1.30 ! So cheapp !

I'm in love with the song , Sober by Kelly Clarkson . Very nice ! The chords are very simple too . So i can play it on my guitar very easily ...

I just bought some instant whipped potato home . It's should be nice , i've tried it quite a couple of times at Daphne's place . Not bad !

I bought microwave pop corns too ! Yummy !

Life is getting real boring... Excitement for miracles is fading...Gripping hold of the mustard seed-like faith daily with my thrist for Him ...I wonder....if my cry is ever heard ...O Lord ... But no matter what you're the air that i survive on ...

Mudane life is getting more and more mudane...Until i'm tired of reviving it... Haha , but i guess there's still hope ....

2008-10-24T10:36:00.002+08:00

Feeling like listening to the song - Stop and Stare now ! hhaha

Helene will be attending some birthday party later while charmaine might not be able to come out .

So i'm here free and not taken . Haha ! Maybe i shall study later . Prepare for my intensive that's coming up real soon .

I'll having bio almost everyday for my intensive arghhh madness .

Just got a call , Alicia khoo date me hahaa !

It's really a cool weather now . I hardly can pull myself out of bed as everything is so cozy !

I've nothing to blog suddenly . Feeling like praying now. Desperate for miracles !

So i shall end here !

Vanessa Han , to really show u my affection ... See this

Vanessa Han , I love you !

mundane day

2008-10-23T21:19:00.003+08:00

It's really a mundane day . Everyone in my team seems to be extremely busy . But it's good to see them serving ...

Went back to school at 6.30pm , another talk from Mrs Kok , thinking that it's long and hectic enough . But realising there's a finale behind the whole session ( Someone who beats Mrs K's talent and abilities ) Haha . Well but after attending it , i really feel the urge to start mugging for Os . Especially after i receive my results today .

Verbally i didnt really want my parents to tag along for meet the parents session . but somehow i really want them to come ... yea...

10! ! !

Love Eunice !

2008-10-23T13:14:00.005+08:00

Eunice Cheong is currently at my house ! Comparing my results to her .

The thing that come from her mouth is " See See ! Very good ! " ,"See ! See ! What happen to you " After that she will attempt to delete what i've post about her .

She's now talking to herself , or i should say to her own report book ! She has gone mad ahhh !

She pop out at my house from no where , so now both of us are left alone at home with my poor Darin ! Hahaha So compromising !

Both of us will be going to the gym later .

She's now showing me that she got 1st in class , while i got 3rd . Arghh ! 3rd not bad already man ! She makes me feel so bad about getting 3rd . What a friend .

But so nice of her , hahah accompanying me when i'm bored .

If you see this , you're nice! Let's go for some china trip together when we are in our 50s ! Together with our grandson and daughter !

"Through the gates of Woodlands Ring walk the best "( Eunice cheong forc

Wooo's feeling

2008-10-22T13:48:00.002+08:00

Hi people !

I'm not in school today ! Again ! Ok , i'm really not in favour with this anymore . As it is not that i didnt want to go school , is just that i can no longer pull myself out of bed . My parents cant pull me out of bed too . The next thing i see is 12:22pm on my handphone , and arghhh i missed school again ...

I hate the whole lot of feelings of not going to school lately , i need to up my discipline level .

OK ! So everyone that see this post , please wake me up at 6.30am TMR MORNING !!!!!!
Well , i guess not much ppl will wake me up , cause the blog seems so DEAD !!!!!!!

OKOK , this shall be my way of sharing my heart , and years later i shall read back .

Juan called me this morning , well ... I cant even wake up when she call me . I wonder what's wrong with me .

I guess i'm going to starbucks later to read some books . I love doing that , rather then engaging myself into some hk drama serial that i cant stop watching .

You know control !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hhahha !

Surprisingly , i'm very happy today , maybe it's just because i did some stuff with God today a few minutes after i wake up today . Cool huh ? Alining my thoughts with God , i threw how i felt towards this season down to Him . Then i felt much more better . You know female tend to talk to people when they feel bad . Maybe i shall talk to God . Blabber all my stuff out . Your friends may think that you're annoying , but God never think so . Hahah ! Yap , so i'm in a quite cheerful mood now .

I shall go wash out my dog's little house before i type out my report ! I've so many things to type ! I miss LYNETTE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhh . I've been waiting for Wednesday to arrive ! So that i can type everything down and send it ! Yea ....

So yap !

I shall post this .

I love Lord .
I love you guys ( maybe u might want to consider if you are in the "you guys " category ! :) Hahah )

Love ,
Gabrielle

Contemplating

2008-10-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

cool day ? Went out with Jomain , i guess the purpose that Jomain is in F4 is partially to pressurize me to study ! Hahah ! Ok , to be honest , i myself is very worry about my studies after my EOY .I'm in love with Jomain !

I have tons and tons of thoughts going through my mind right now , so much that i need to chunk all of it down and send it to my beloved leader in London . I guess transparent is the word to my life lately .

I love my life lately , stuff and stuff happens consecutively from school to court to mudane att and then some nonsense , it dont seems to stop . Neither do i feel any breakthrough in my life when i expected myself to . But i know i depend on God alot lately to really smile and enjoy . It's not easy feeling happy after stuff that have just happen , in fact anger seems to flood every part of me . But i guess the real breakthrough i have now , is the intimacy of me and God . I love You , Lord .

I guess alot of times we dont know why God allows certain stuff in our life , especially in those most unexpected and unwelcome timing . But if we believe that there's a purpose behind such problems , just a faith like an seed , it makes a whole lot of difference .

Maybe i shall stop talking at people and really chunk stuff down and out of my mind .

O level Chinese!

Journey towards my God

2008-10-18T09:31:00.002+08:00

Hi,

I guess i can just let the blog hibernate for awhile ... Maybe not ... See how haha !

Well i've just deleted a post recently , is something that i have never done for such a long time-deleting post ... Yea , i guess we really just need to discard negative thoughts in our mind even though how negative reality can seems to be .

Just like Pastor Cho Yonggi , he is always above his problem that's why he can really run the world largest church , cause nothing seems to be stopping him , at least he concour everything that's on his way . I read his book , he actually felt how we felt when he was building his church , sad and stuff . But he's definately some one of faith .

Needed to recharge myself in the presense of God super often lately , just meditating and telling myself things will come to pass . It all came by revelations , God only moves in the atmosphere and the substance of confidence . It's just like confidence conduct God's presense ...... Cool revelation huh ? I'm quite impress about myself . Nevertheless God is the Upmost Highest , a lot of times we often talk to people about God , i guess talking to God about our people is still the most ultimate way .

I need to go ! haha , meeeting jomain to study, Ok Ok ! Thanks for reading , bye !

Something spoilt my world ...

2008-10-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

Monday blues

2008-10-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

Today , my darling beloved Yu Juan , called me several times to bring back good news for our results when i'm at bugis shopping .

To Juan .. If she ever goes online .. . " Juan , i love you !!!!!!!! you're the best "

You must know my pact with Juan , both of us have this ultimate common thing between both of us . Hahah She's the best .

I went out with Daphne today ! Woo ! it's fun , even though i didnt get much stuff . I got myself 1 bracelet and 1necklace .

I met at bugis , and attemp to walk to Hagi Lane . We walk till Arab st , and cant find it , so we walk back ... And when i was whining to Daphne that we cant find it . She spotted it ! We went in , thinking where on earth chelsea introduce me to , as all the shops were closed . So we decided to patronise it some day when the light shines brightly instead of a moon .

Went back to Bugis , and drop by TCC ! WOOO My Fav . We went tcc for a drink and i ordered my fav! Caramel Azuki Frappe . it's the best as there's Azuki . Azuki is a kind of red bean for drinks ! It's super nice . I didnt really mull over not drinking Rose Juliet this time round ... haha Cause Caramel Azuki Frappe is very nice ! I was there reading my Harry Potter Deathly Hallows while Dap was doing some TO TO stuff . The more she circle the more depress she got . She ordered a Rasberry Chocolate Frappe , i tried - not my cup of tea .

After that we went to Bras Basah , for my book trail . It gave me a shock of my life , the shop there closes at like 6pm , when i reach there at 8.58pm ? We must be looking stupid, standing in the middle of the vacant building , trying to spot a shop that's open . As expected there isnt any .

So we went back to Bugis street , for my accesories and Daphne's tibits . She bought tons of tibits , she spent like 20 bucks on tibits ? pig huh ?

It's quite a cool night , we talk about everything under the moodlight ... Handsome Kimmi Raikkonen ... Alonso transfered from Benz to Renault and Lewis Hamilton getting more and more popular ... Aig , and insurance , and banking ... Not wanting to be a auntie at 15 years old ... Her boyfriend's sister's dog got pregnant due to her dog ... How will the baby look like with Jack Russel and Chihuahua being the parents ???

Cool huh . to top it off , i have a amazing chat with Charmaine on the phone not long after . They brought up alot of good news , which brings the faith element back to me . They never fails to rise up , never fails to do something that blow me off . Helene and Charmaine , are the pillars of the CG with the heart that's so amazing ... That's pumping for a purpose , that they know is great .

I love them .

I love my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Love,
Gabrielle

Gabrielle love you ! Everyone on earth . So if you are my enemy i still loves you !

2008-10-13T10:53:00.002+08:00

Haha is a great weekend ,it's so fun till i cant get out of bed ... Ahemmm you know what i mean .

Yea, so i'm at home now ... o yea my leg , it has super watery pus yesterday , so i took out the original plaster and just let my wound expose to everything .... i just roll around my bed and stuff . today it dont seems as disgusting . The whole pus thong harden and turn into a darker tone of yellow ... Yea . I guess my bed and stuff has super disgusting sol light stuff all over..

Weekend was great . Guitar Hero was fun . Pastor Lia shared something that hits my heart . Having hope even on our last breathe to death . I'm sure i have , but i'm also sure , people around me doesnt .... Must do smth about it...

a discouraging

2008-10-12T10:54:00.002+08:00

My blog seems quite dead huh ...Except for Sandy Woo who kept tagging weird stuff.

Well Life' great after exams ... Exams=No life ...

I guess , sometimes when tragic happens too suddenly at the most unexpected time .... You just need to think of what to do to the people affected the most , then throw it at the back of your mind , and go on to do what you need to do ...end of the day , then come back and solve the prob . Can never let the thing affect you for too long . It will definately affect you for awhile , there's sure anger .. At least a holy anger? at least something that it's worth your anger ...

You cannot just because of a battle that you wanna win and lose the whole war . You cant just stop and solve and solve and solve all the overwhelming problem ...

Who cares if the people around you understand ... Sometimes , put yourselve in their shoe ...
She may think you're emoing ... but you're deep in thoughts ... She may think you need to be left alone ... while you need some one to care for .... Yea ... So no need to be affected by them ...
They might not know what you're going through ... Maybe different value and perspective for relationship ... They definately care for you ! Hahaha....

That;s not the most important thing i guess ... is really to move on with life and not be affected drastically by what just had happened ........

I experience it yesterday ... It's not a tragic ... but it's definately something that is very discouraging .. Somehow just need to pull through and go on . All you have to know in your life is that God is a 100% good God , He will never do something that will harm you . All you have to do is to just search for what's He's trying to teach you and learn it ....

Great day !

2008-10-10T20:05:00.002+08:00

At Chelsea's house now ... Haha on the bus to her house , i was thinking about a lot of sutff , not emoing ... just going through some thoughts .... Actually 10 isn't that hard .... 10 is easy , in fact 15 is easier than 10 ! Hahah , for al ot of reason , 15 is easier . Yea ! So 10 ! I can feel that it's coming ...

Went out with Lynette today ... We literally went havoc! Haha the scramble egg and weird food . It's totally the kopitiam kind of food . But it's definitely fun ! Lynette is super funny . And we concluded that i cant cook ! Hahaha ... But through it some stuff in the 3rd narration view is being learn ... I like the feeling , just learning things from the 3rd narration stuff ... Nothing about the sowing of seeds , but it's about seeing things on a movie side and know how you have been love , how your leaders love you ... It's just powerful ... And i manage to just store everything into my memory on the bus... Perfect bus ride ...

I bet chelsea dont know what's going through my mind ...

At Chelsea's house now . I've decided to bring my clothes along .. I like going her house with my OWN !!! clothes ! I feel more comfortable .. I went over to her house for so many times that it seems to be my 2nd home , ( other than my Church and my own house which is irreplaceable ), everything seems so casual and so home ... I guess cause i act as if it's my house ... Hahah and her house is far too stylo ( is a nicer to the word meXXy) hahah that i can tamper and ramage anymore . I've my toothbrush there , and i'm leaving a set of my clothes here hahahah !

before leaving church , eunice and charmaine warned me and chelsea about some totally digusting stuff

Follow up was great . Lynette gave a very simple follow up to helene , yet learn some stuff . So glad that Helene is growing so fast in church ... I can see Zone F bursting , feel the groove and the heat . We are like prehearting for a major breakthrough in Church ! Woo !!!

10 is easy ! ( *(00)* ) hahaha %(*(00*)% hahahah , (*(#)*) Hahahah look more like a rabbit with ear cut off !

10 is easy ! I love my life . I love everyone around me , so it might be you :) . And I love God !

I feel so fortunate and I LOVE MY LIFE

Freedom!

2008-10-10T00:06:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ENDED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OFFICIALLY ENDED TODAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

Can i tell you i have the longest exam ever in my life . 1 day of free day seems to be so precious to me ! I heard from the teachers in school that quite a few of our papers were not good , we arent excelling ... Hopefully they will moderate the whole thing... Well everyone tried their best it's a very obvious fact . Chelsea , Charmaine and I fell sick ! Haha I fell sick on wed , Charmaine had fever on tues , Chelsea had sore throat on monday ( MY PILLS !) Yea my mum fell sick too !

The whole day resting ... Need to sort of wake up at 9 tmr . I cant wait for the coming weekend ! it's like a finally pressure-free weekend ,anti mugging week end , when you dont need to leave and start mugging for papers ,when you can just spend time and literally CHILL OUT !!!!!!! Thats' the word !

I dont really feel the excitement of resting flowing over me , the harsh feeling ... i dont feel that way . In fact i felt more carefree and relax , stress-free ... Thats the feeling , it's weird huh , expecting a strong sensation but in the end it's just the flooding-in-the-air feeling ...

Back to school on monday ... Err what do you think i should do ..( smile in a cheeky manner )

haha ,

well shall stop blogging crap on my blog , like how my sister has flooded my tagboard !

She's super irritating , and she's the only source that i absolutely enjoy irritate ! She was sitting in front of my using her pc ,while i'm sitting just 1 meter away from her using my laptop. and she went flooding my tagboard ! Told her to stop and she flooded more .

So when she went to bed , i took a revenge by laying on her , and irritating her till she cant sleep ! Hhaha ! I was tickling her foot and just doing all sorts of things to wake her up . she got super furious that she yelled and my dad came over to check out what happen . but it was a super hilarious scene . I bet she enjoyed it even though i'm super annoying .

God here i come , serving You!!!!!!!!!!

Exam blues

2008-10-08T17:59:00.003+08:00

Wow! Last week Pastor Lia preched about Our life in school . Seriously alot of times we'll just talk about ourselve and in the end talking at people . Haha We felt the feeling of being talk at also . Some times is really quite irritating , when you're feeling very rush but the people around you just dont catch it haha Yea . So yap must really take note of what we talk about . I think with close friends is still not so bad , but will people who you're not that close or on the process of being closer it's gets quite irritating . Yap So wake yourselve up once in awhile and see if your friend is still alive .

Yea , we really will tend to be so not sober when we're in the hype of doing something , and always go overboard or just let lose of ourselve . Then when we think back, we regret or jsut ponder over how are we gonna turn the whole thing around so that it's not a bad and stuff . Haha Yea just felt that we must really be sober that kind ... Yea....

I'm in love with coldplay ! haha

sometimes people just need a listening ear... Sometimes a crying shoulder is better than a 1000 of advise ....Sometimes we just need to be there rather than trying to help... Availability is the best gift you can ever give to a person . The relationship follows it ... Josephine is powerful . really powerful.... Wow haha !

Tmr is my LAST paper , can i tell you i think that my school is very abnormal . We have 2 bio paper , 2 amath paper , 2 emath paper , 2 chem paper , plus the usual 2 eng , 2 higher chinese , 2 chinese paper . I have like 2h and 45 mins of bio and 1 1/2 of amath . After i leave my school my brain seems to have the banging sensation . The squeeze and over used feeling . So mentally used up . All the papers were killer for the pass few days ... You thought that you master all the questions ? Wait till you see the paper and get killed by the teachers ! Arghhhh . Ache Ache Ache . But feel 75% relief as i have no more paper which i need to memorise and i'm not planning to do anything about my HMT so yap !

hahah ! I cant wait for my exams to end ! I cant wait for friday to arrive !

Hello

2008-10-05T16:43:00.002+08:00

Today is really mundane ... Just reached home ... Feeling rather lethargic ... Feeling like eating some magee ...

Well , woke up late today , realising that my sister asked Joyce ( our tutor ) to come over at like 9am in the morning ?

Planned to go over converse warehouse for cheap stuff . But didnt really make it in the end ... yea ... so i reached Paya Lebar , studied for about 45 mins ? Then went over to National Library to mug . Not bad . i finished like 2 chaps of Chemistry ? then left at 3.30pm ... Nothing much today although i expected something...

Sometimes hanging out alone is great once in a while . It will just force you to think through . Knowing more about yourself , having insides to yourself . What you like , but piss you off ... Kind of thing .

But the mugging is good . Just that the vending machine broke down ... Which is quite irritating as i didnt really eat anything for the day ...

I think i should go update my MP3 , i suddenly felt that i'm absolutely sick of the songs inside.

I'm really impressed by Josephine's simple heart .

2008-10-04T11:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is a good day . After i reach home . I just feel totally moodless . Meaning not u a very hype up mood neither am i in a very down mood . So just moodless .You know dull that kind .

So i just leave my msn on and played crossword . Ok , crossword puzzle is really the last thing u want to do at night after a day of straining , and when you just feel like slacking . It will just strain up ur mind , and the unanswered questions will just grating on ur nerves . Yap so chel when online , and i just replied anyhow , and focus on my puzzle ! Ok can i tell u i never complete one in my whole life . And i dont really look forward on completing any of it .

I took a quite bath , and just brought fav thick blanket out and slack on my sofa ! It's a leather sofa so it's cold . The raining night makes the whole living room cozy . It's like winter ,an you're in your bed with tons of thick thick blanket . Well , i'm not living in winter , and definately not with my thick thick blanket . But if you balance it up . Actually it's the same - the ratio ! Haha too much math !

I on my fav Avril's under my skin album . I prefer the older ones . nicer . i dont even bother to check out her latest album . The front cover dont seems to be my kind . But my sister love it . So i guess it's just personal preference . hahaha.... Yap So it's played it using my dad's kenwood surrounding thing . It's such a good amplifier . It filter out the sound and the song that play seems so smoothing . Yap ! So i was there lying on my bed . Smsing people . and i realise i cant sleep but neither do i want to leave the couch , so i just lie there listen to songs and loosen myself up ! woo ! It's really relaxing and cozy . Then slowly i doze off ....

I woke up today realising i'm on my dad's bed , while my cell is sitting on the sofa ! Wooo . I wonder what have happen in the middle of the night . The amazing thing is , my blanket is with me . so i guess i was rolled into the blanket and walk into my parent's room ! It really recharge me from my hectic mugging week ! Well just a few more papers to go and liberty is coming to save me ! Can u smell the smell of freedom ? Wooo!

O yea , a revelation i had during pm yesterday ! it brings me to the next whole level

When will exams ever end ?

2008-10-03T00:19:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna go to converse warehouse !!!! This sunday !

WOOOO !!!!!!!!

Ok ! haha it's late at night and i'm here blogging . Hahah

Well , i'm having literature paper and emath paper 1 tmr . I feel quite well prepared this time round, but need to recall everything tmr before stepping into the school gate .

Went studying with chelsea at Cafe Cartel . Very productive and cheap but food aint that nice . and the mustard aint nice too . The people there are nice though ! Hahah ! price are reasonable too . We mugged and didnt talk . Miracle huh ? There must be someone praying for us to keep out from temptation of blabbering . Actually we did blabber alot when we're having our not-so-pleasant dinner ... hahah , and calling up our team to comfirm some stuff and just talk .

Went trying out skirts at Espirit after mugging at 9 plus ! Nice lady serving us and didnt scold us ! But we totally look gross with skirt . Chel and i make a pact that we must wear skirt together and hang out with it . Hahah Dont you think it will be a very hilarious and clumsy day out ?

Have just plan out some stuff for my team . I felt very accomplish , however it's just the beginning , cause carrying it out is the hardest . Being constant is really not easy , but can be done ! WHY NOT ! Hahaha !

My deprive life ... My mum have banned me from eating any food that contains milk , which is pratically everything !!! I went grocery shopping with my dad this week , it's a night mare , i had a list of food that i want to buy before i even reach the super market . When i list out everything which is ... instant mash potato , instant pizza , instant cambell soup , instant porridge . Which is all rejected , cause they are either too milky or it's from china . Thanks . So in the end i went home with some strawberries ... and oxy5 cream ! Thanks ! I'm leading such a healthy lifestyle . I work out last saturday , and i went swimming the saturday before that and I actually went jogging last evening ! 4km! hahaha ! with my sis ! She finish it in like 20 mins ? Mad woman !

Just today my mum banned me from consuming can food , bottle coca cola , can coca cola . Which means practically i cant drink , all coke , milo with milk ( contain milk ) , frappe , instant magee , sadine , lucheon meat , can longans , can rambutans , instant pizza , snicker bars , m&m bars , instant porridge , milk , chocolate milk , youghurt , hershey chocolate , ice cream .

Which is practically everything !!!! Ahh , I shall jsut become a vegetarian myself , like miley cyrus ! Or raw food eater like Jason Mraz ...

I'm in love with kim raikkonen ! I'm Gabrielle Raikkonen from now on ! :::)))) Haha No longer Gabrielle MCcartney , and absolutely not Gabrielle Mchicken or Mccurry ! I'm Gabrielle Raikkonen .
Few reasons why i switch husband.

1) Hard to twist and turn Raikkonen into some very funny words . So i'll just remain as Raikkonen ! and not some funny last name

2) Raikkonen can drive , i'm sure he dont mind buying me a car . I just need to get him onto some comercial and we might even be offered free sponsership of ferrari cars and fuel !

3) He is very handsome , so i'm sure our baby will be nice

4) He is blone , haha baby will have weird hair colour which is unique !

5) He has nice eyes 1

6 ) He knows Massa !

7) He knows Lewis Hamilton . Maybe he can set me up with Lewis for a dinner or something

8) I can drive his ferrari around !

9) He will not be around for half of our married life , busy racing . Leaving me behind , and i can lead a carefree life for half of my married life !

10 ) I can give ppl ferrari for birthday gift .

11) i can have ferrari as our wedding car!

12) I will have no problem supplying a ferrari for our future child

13) I can get one ferrari for my parents ! at least if i sell my ferrari i can get 2 volkswagen for my parents

14) I can suggest to the F1 organiser that maybe the bettles' of volkswagen should paticipate in the race , it will be quite cute hahah ! the hilarious one out of the whole intense race . It will be like a small lady bird in a group of , grasshopper ! ghahah so cute !

yap ! that's about it ! the clock strikes 1 , an i'm gonna turn into sleeping beauty ...Nah , maybe sleeping student , or sleeping mugger sounds better for this season ..No a sleeping leader .. NoNONO sound so wrong . A sleeping .... a sleeping person ! Yap that's the best , cause it consist ,beauty , student , muggers , leader ... Vague but useful . This kind of words come best at this hour ! haha !

Well , a long time since i dedicate my post to God . Hahah ! Here 's one for You Dad !

Dad , i miss you , and i want you more and more each day , regardless of what i'm doing , who i'm leading , where i'm living or what happen to me . If there is one thing that i can gladly say no one can still from me , is You , my Dad . Is something that no one can take away from me . They can put me in the prison , they can put me in the wilderness , in the forest , or even before any people kills me for my conviction , i can just lift up my hand with my last breathe and worship . Just because it's in the forth dimension , that's why no one can take it away from me . Anyone can do anything to stop me , but as long as i live , praising and worshipping can never be pulled away from me . Not exams , not family , not friendship . But all these , O Father , shall bring me closer closer to You . O Dad , can i be your right hand man ? O DaddyI simply live for you .

If ever someone gonna ask me who i want people to remember me as , i dont want ppl to remember me as a leader blah blah blah , or a ceo or what . Father, but i want them to remember me as someone who's conviction never move , you can do nothing , she just wont move that conviction out of her . I wonder what she's thinking , but i admire her determination .

a week without monday to wednesday

2008-09-28T10:52:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone ! I shall blog as this tedious week is ending soon , in just 14 hours time ?

I forgotten what i did on Monday to Wednesday day and i dont really bother to recall ! Hahah !

Yap on Thursday i went hang out with Helene and her friend ! Hahah ! Suddenly i was bombarded with tons and tons of secret of Helene! She's really a radical person ! I cant wait to see her exams and she growing up ! I can see her literally growing up in Church .

If ever i cant impact many many many life in my lifetime . But seeing people like Helene who i see growing up , who i love and cared . Slowly it birth forth a radical youth , who caught the vision also ... I might never be God's plan for me to impact many many many people . But really nuturing someone like this up really makes me feel so much more than just contented . You know that you have done smth for God !

Lately i found myself in this position whereby i learn alot more than just the hype side of the Christianity . But is the deep side , is the my character moulding into the life time . is preparing myself for now and beyond. It's no longer just the hype but is the right spirit towards each things and my perspective towards something .

Well alot of time , mudane is the thing of growth . Cause it will really draw you to God ! Never succumb the mundane to the hype . There's sure problems to be solve out of the blue in our mudane life ! That is the key , everytime we will grow one step closer when we solve , ask and learn for the problems . Without you knowing life will just evolving to the next whole level . But we ourselve cant feel it , until we hit a boiling point and ready for the breakthrough !

Well Friday is tedious ! I studied for 7 hours straight in my library ALONE! Some very funny and weird stuff happen to 3 other students who shared the table with me .I think 2 girls were with 1 guy and there is a huge smell of jealousy and inner war in the midst of their presence . It's so weird being there . But thinking about it , library is a public place . So i just continue studying !

The super sweet thing is that my mummy !!!! I smsed her that i'm mugging at the library @ the reference level ! She cancelled the lunch i'm having with her to study , telling me that there's tons of free afternoon for a lunch with her( acutally is she thought of acompanying me for lunch as i'm alone ) . Yap so about 2 hours after me mugging , she turned up in the library with my jacket , a packet of cashew nuts , a bottle of mineral water that i forgotten to bring to school that day, my bio ten years series , and 10 bucks !!!!!!! I love her ! So sweet of her huh . When i tell chelsea about it , she said that i'm very spoilt . But i say that my mummy have spiritually entered the series of love sermon in Church !

MUMMY I LOVE YOU !

Ok i'm gonna get her to read this !!!

So today , i'm at chelsea's place , i reached her place 6am in the morning ! mugging through out the night at khatib mac . I think is not a bad mugging . I finish studying chap 2 of ss . N i attempt to study chemistry which i totally dislike !!!!!! Well i failed by knocking out everything i read the notes . But i managed to study speed of reaction and chromatography . I'm quite amaze that i can study so much within just 2 days !!!

OK! Great ! Haha , great is gonna be ahead , breakthrough is coming !!!!!!
Love,
Gabrielle !!!

PS! JIAXIN I miss you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I;ve blog

Running the race,,, tag team

2008-09-21T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hi !

Reminising over our past ! I was reading through all my post with chelsea ! Quite an special experience . We really change alot in thinking and point of view . It's a very ridiculous how chelsea , jiaxin and i became friends .Our contrary personality ...I still remember the time we went to buy food for steamboat...
The times when chelsea and i rush to J8 to meet Lynette and Jiaxin with Josephine and Priscilla for our first movie , the enchanted ! ... I still remember the time when i still think chelsea is a very stuck up person on the train to J8 ! I still remember the time when Jiaxin was the first to come my house and stay over ! The 6 hours long phone conference on sumos and 10 criteria for husband in the future ... the paying car tax and 37 years old....The fries and chicken wings .. 6 pacs and pigs time line of jiaxin...

When we got our first integration ... The chiong yishun prata shop days ....The sneaking into school during psle season.... Sleep in jiaxin house days..... The wrestling thing we had in jiaxin's room .... The horror movies and chilli crabs .... The breaking chelsea's utensil experience .... The 5am prayer conference ... The everyday meeting each other after school days ... The taking from woodlands to orchard to meet chel and from marina bay back to yishun and back to amk time .... The hanging out at newton station ... The sleepless night during camp planning ... The study outings... The lady in pink ... The buffets.... The chionging to toilet after buffets experience... The learning-to-type report days.....The christmas night at jiaxin's place...The F4 chalet... The tag team - need each other days ... The 0 att days....Moments after moments that can be mentioned .... But it's these process that makes NOW that significant .

We may have the NOW without the past . It may still be as joyful but the significance is not that anymore . Is the time when we been through ...

At the end of the day God dont see what title u may have , but God sees how much u multiply in your talent . How much effort in put in .

At the end of the day , is these people that run the race with you . It's like you are on the running track running the marathon! Rain may come , put one stretch out the hand to pull another on . Or maybe one may hurt her leg , but the other will carry the casualty on the back and continue running . Then it's the partner's turn to have feel thristy , the other half , took out her half left water bottle for her partner ! One had cramps , the other carried her and run on ... One received one awful phone call on the process running , the other pick the person up and start prayinf and hugging that person , lay her hand on the person's back and continue running ...Then the last bit of road seeing the end , the one cheer the other on running side by side , crossing the line at the same time... At the end of the time .. it's not how much u sacrifice on water ... God wont judge .. o person A sweat more then person B . But God will say o good and faithful servant !

The joyful part is about finishing the race ! The process is the exciting part .... The glory we have is just the joy we have for a split seconds !

Never miss out this race together !!!!

CHELSEA , JIAXIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love ,
Gabrielle

Doing Weird things at weird hour + Dad forbid me mugging !!

2008-09-18T15:18:00.004+08:00

Thanks to my dad ! He caught me knocking out on the chair where i left my notes on and totally knock out on it @ 3am in the morning . But thank God , i pretend to be knock out , or not he would have been more furious . So what happen was , i was actually still awake 3am in the morning studying for my social study yesterday , until i heard footsteps next door , and i know IT'S MY DAD ! So the first thing i did was to lay myself on the chair pretend to be knocked out ! So that he will not be that angry that i studied till late night . Yap ! After he left , i off all the lights and on this small lamp to complete my math homework . I did my homework half way till the battery of the light ran out ! Irritating , so i went to on the toilet light and i realise that i still cant see !

So in the end , i just let the toilet light on , and start prayign for my team , and just pray for anything that came into my mind . It's not that i really need prayer for my lamp , but i think praying at that point of time seems to be more productive then just mugging without sufficient light . after prayign for awhile , i on the light in my room ( as i'm assured that my dad was sound asleep ) and studied for my bio until i literally knock out .

So my furious dad , forbid me to study now , and just want me to rest !

Ok He's never so nice everytime i bring back my report book , but he's always so nice the prime time before the exams ! Irony ! Oxymoron!

So yap ! This are the first 2 weird things my family did at weird timings .

My mum was trying to squeeze lemon juice out of this manual juice squeezer ... aiya i dont know what you call it . You know squeeze lemon into lemon juice ?! Yap ! She made my dad bought 5 lemons from Fairprice , for slimming purpose . She happily walk up to me one day !

We speak in chinese

Mum " Eh! I'm buying 5 lemons man !"

Gab : For ???? ( Is she going to cook ? I'm hope not )"

Mum : I heard squeezing fresh lemons into lemon juice & drink it can really slim someone down !

Gab : Serious ah ? O ok ... 5 lemons waaa , how we gonna squeeze it

Mum : Aiya , i got that squeezer thing , after we drink it sure slim down one !( happily )

Gab : am I that fat ???!!!!

3rd weird thing my family did .

Monday , i came home , dragging myself here and there .

My dad being very bored walk out of his room and chat with me . He was quite happy that he got a new cantonese drama serial , but he wasnt that happy as my mum chose it for him .

This is our conversation .

Dad : Hey we've got a new set of drama , watch it when you're free k ?

Gab : Waa dad , finally ah , got yourself something . No la , i having my EOY .

Dad : OOO , ok ok , No la your mum chose it la !

Gab : Waa miracle Ma chose it ???

(Backgroud info : My dad dont really like my dog Darin whereas my mum loves my dog . Often my mum will threaten to poison my dad's fishes with washing powder whenever my dad scold Darin ! Hahah , My dad's super jealous that my mum wanted to murder his fishes for that stupid dog ! haha plus whenever my mum aint at home , Darin will bite all my dad's plastic glove for the aquarium into pieces ! My dad hates Darin )

Dad : yea , when the shop tender told your mum that dog lover will love to watch this kind of show . Even the title of the show is " When the dog falls in love with the cat " Before i even decide your mother seems so interested with the drama , so i rent it instead !!!

Gab : Haha serious ?! Hahah Is it nice ! Hahah Got darin inside wor ! But expected ma to do that la ! Pooor you dad ! hahah

Yap ! That's all the last ultimate one !!!

Ahhh , Look at the pictures ! I just want to go out and have fun ! But i cant ! Self control ... Arghhhh EOY around the corner ! After EOY is intensive revision programme , then is my olevel year . After my o level year i'm gonna burn down my whole stack of revision paper ! AHhaha ok la !

I seriously wonder does Mdm jas read my blog whenever i' absent from school ....

I was competing with Vanessa Han who's still alive at 3.45am ! I am ! She was too ! Both of us overshot when we were taking nap and needed to mug till dawn ! arghhh ! Hhaha

But God's just wonderful ! Recharge in his power ! Vanessa han said , if cannot take it , go pray and come back and mug ! Powerful right !

Is vanessa Han related to the Hans' restaurant ????

OkOK

Love,

Gabrielle